I figured I'd post this here because I'd probably get the highest quality feedback...
Essentially, I've already beaten the game of life based on most objectives people have. I've gone as far as feasibly possible on my own. I don't know how to elevate my situation anymore. I earn $150k/yr. I only need to do about 2 hours of actual work a day to get my job done so I just spend most my day shitposting on the internet because I've got nothing better to do. I already live in one of the best cities in Canada. I have a nice house, a nice car and I've got $100k sitting in my bank account. I'm situated to inherent about $2m. I could probably retire if I just saved my money at about 45-50yo and maintain the same standard of living as now. I have 0 "negative" influences on my life. No stress from anything. I eat healthy. I go to the gym. I'm in shape. I play summer and winter team sports. I have a bit of a social life and hang out with people on average probably once a week outside of work.
The problem is that life is boring as fuck for me. I don't really enjoy much of what I get up to. I feel like my whole existence is just working for other people's benefit instead of my own. I'm just a tax payer for the government's interest. I have no life of my own it seems. I just exist to fulfil a role for everyone else in society. That's how I feel anyhow.
Video games are also boring to me. I can barely play an hour of any game before I get bored of it.
The only enjoyment I seem to get out of life is when I travel but that's only because I blow tons of money which isn't sustainable and then as soon as the trip is done, it's back to the grind. Kind of depressing to get 3 weeks out of the year where I actually felt like I was living and the other 49 weeks is just standby mode waiting for the next 3 weeks off to travel and blow a bunch of money.
Whenever I gaze into the lives of others around me most seem to be caught up in some sort of personal drama that in actuality is mostly fabricated because whomever is involved in the drama lacks the wisdom or competence to solve the drama. Most of the problems people are caught up can easily be solved but it almost seems like people feed on this drama and it's what gives their life meaning. That doesn't seem any better to me. That just seems like people trying to find something to distract their attention so they never have to fall into the situation I'm in and truly analyze if they're happy with their life.
All the "cultural" shit in our society just feels fake and contrived to me. I couldn't give a shit what TayTay or Kardashian is up to. All the politics is nothing but theatre for the masses. Nothing will change. Nothing that the media reports on matters. You have no control over any of it. It's a waste of energy, like every other avenue it seems. Media is boring. It's just all the same repetitive tropes. History is boring because it's all made up and anyone can make up whatever they want. Religion is also a lost cause for me. If all that matters is life after life then what about my life now. Just more holding pattern. Work to pay taxes to Rome until you die. I might as well just be dead now.
How do people manage through life? It's just so monotonous.
I spent most of my life trying to pursue career+women and both those ends seem entirely worthless. I already peaked on those fronts, now I'm supposed to enjoy the fruits of my hard work or something but there's nothing to enjoy.
So, I have a good income and stable situation. What would you guys do? What am I supposed to do? I've tried the basic join clubs and shit but frankly, I hate most other people. My kind of people are the Genghis Khans of the world. Maybe a Dionysus type. I find most people I meet in normal venues in the community are just dry, boring people living their monotonous lives too. All judging others from whatever sense of moral high ground they're standing on compared to others. Most seeing fun as vice. Canadians in general also seem to be too untrusting of others and guarded.
This life just seems to be a drag and it really shouldn't be because I do have a lot of good things going for me but I don't know how to turn what I have going for me into anything more. I feel like my existence at the moment is just to prop up a giant Ponzi scheme known as civilization.
Any advice?
Are your mother and father still alive? Honor them by getting getting married and having children, the more the better. After a couple of kids you will find the ennui quite quickly fades away, and you will realize how retarded you were for feeling that way in the first place.
Or if that is too much commitment then start by thanking God every day for your station in life and for the opportunities that He has placed in your path. Even if you don't believe just the act of fake gratitude will help attenuate the pride that is preventing you from expanding your consciousness past your immediate personal needs.
Send me your 18yo daughter. I expect her to be beautiful and wholly submissive to me. Otherwise, I have 0 interest in women and starting a family.
Yes, the fake gratitude might be worth something. It does change one's mindset. In a lot of spirituality texts they do speak to fake gratitude and love as being a requisite for ascending which is why Christianity has a usefulness. Might be worth trying actually. Good advice.
It isn't about you. You have an duty to your parents, and to your bloodline. You can choose to shirk the duty, like you are doing now, but that doesn't change the fact that you have it.
But even if you are too much of a pussy to make the sacrifices necessary to fulfill your obligations, you can still contribute to other White families are a part of the chain of ancestry. The best way is by joining a church or other civic organization or getting involved in local politics.
Not interested. I will only provide for a community that provides for me and I don't feel any community has provided enough to me to have earned any duty toward it from me.
And there it is.
You have a God-shaped hole in your soul that you're trying to fill with anything else.
The last church I went to asked everyone to pray to politicians for bringing world peace. I don't think you realize how bad Canadian churches are.
You're entitled lol. You've done nothing for your community. So little in fact the only thing you have to show for it is you paid taxes and fees to the government. You've done so little for your community the only thing you have to show is a house and cars and experiences. Why would any community want you? Why would a father be happy his daughter is with you?
"Provide for me". The phrase of the eternal child. Stand up as a man instead of a petulant snot holding out his hand for more candy.
If that's your attitude you can see why others wouldn't care to do anything for any community you call your own, right? Any community I help I would make sure you're not a member of.
Haha brother what makes you think any community wants you beyond your money? Your attitude reeks of entitlement. When was the last time you did any real work? Not just sit at a desk and click on a computer.
I guess you were just projecting when you called me entitled and prideful. Here you are insulting others asking for advice. What's wrong with you?
Barf
When I was a kid I thought that crap was dumb to.
Same!
I'm glad as adults though we can recognize it as being crap.
High IQ means being lonely a lot.
Have you thought about starting up a video blog and joining the talking-head sphere?
Yeah, that's not the worst idea actually. I guess I could try something like that. Any recommendations for equipment to start with?
Still, this just seems like another distraction at best but I guess that's all life is. Keep yourself distracted and occupied until you die.
You can start with any smartphone or laptop camera. I wouldn't shell out for a unidirectional mic and filter until you've done it a bit and determined if its your thing or not.
Maybe you should join a monastery and spent the rest of your life in prayer and meditation. Away from other people, especially as they annoy you so much. Away from materialism. Away from politics and all the manufactured drama in our world that keeps people manipulated and preoccupied.
I'm only half joking when saying this. The reality is I can't give you any good answers because you are lacking meaning in your life and no one can find meaning except yourself. So I expect this suggestion will be about as much value as all the others that come from without - not much value at all.
I've definitely contemplated that route before. I remember when I was younger I read a news article about some Harvard MBA grad that threw his career away and studied with some Tibetan monks instead. At the time I thought such a thing was ridiculous but now I understand it fully. The quest for meaning... I knew another guy who was big into O&G work way up north making tons of money then one day became a big born again Christian and wanted to be a preacher.
That's not my calling though. Not the worst idea though.
I stopped there. Not going to diagnose your other issues but this is obviously the first big one. You claim to have beaten the game of life but obviously you're not wealthy enough if you're forced by someone else to sit at your desk for 2 hours a day. You need to change jobs, careers, or start your own business that lets you do whatever the fuck you want whenever the fuck you want. Don't want to stop travelling? Live on a cruise ship. Though that's still only the mid-wealth approach. If you were really wealthy you could buy your own yacht or private jet and fuck off to anywhere on the globe on a moment's notice. So until then perhaps figure out a new business or investments that will get you to that point. If your inheritance is guaranteed you might be able to leverage that to get someone to loan you more right now? I don't know, if I really had the answers I'd already be wealthy too.
Seeking this kind of wealth seems like a bad move. If it was attainable everyone would be that rich.
I could focus all my energy to that goal but then I'd just be upset for not reaching it and frankly I don't care to reach it. I spent 10 years of my life trying to reach it and don't have too much to show for it. I guess I got closer so realistically if I spent another 30 on it, I might get to $300k instead of $150k but that's not going to significantly change my life. I'd need to win the lottery realistically.
Haven't you heard the phrase "the rich get richer?" Everyone isn't that rich because a certain level of wealth is required to gain more wealth. Not everyone is given a small loan of a million dollars to start their real estate business. Another reason is most people find satisfaction at some middle level, with a family, friends, fun things to do on the weekend, and a job they don't hate.
I don't know what you've attempted for those 10 years so can't really make any further suggestions though.
I work in banking serving clients much richer than me. All of them want to get richer but even though they're starting from more wealth than me not all of them are going to get anymore wealthier than they are except normal expected growth of their existing wealth no different than throwing my money into the stock market. So do succeed and others declare bankruptcy.
Have you tried taking up juggling?
Or plate spinning?
Both are really good for focussing the mind and can easily kill a few hours and give you a sense of satisfaction.
150k/yr you say? I may be able to offer some advice, for a price...
On a more serious note though, this is a classic case of nihilistic anhedonia.
Sure, just send me $100 for a deposit and then I'll send you $1000 after you give me your advice.
I can feel pleasure just not by anything reasonably acquired in life.
Lol. But that's not a natural state to be in. A healthy human mind doesn't need to acquire anything tangible in order to feel pleasure. It's typically hedonists who become jaded in this type of way, like a drug addict saying "I can feel pleasure, but just not by anything short of a lethal dose of drugs".
Is it though?
Do you remember the first time you played a video game as a child? Do you remember the joy you got from it? Do you remember just wanting to wakeup and play those video games that you got great enjoyment out of. Could you do this again, today? To the same extent? A lot of people can't and imo, that's normal. If video games don't work for you then watch a child as they play with some dolls. It's always precious to watch because of the joy children get over things so basic. That's an experience you don't get back. Why is that? Well, in a lot of ways I think that's because these experiences are part of our overall development as humans and once you've had these experiences and you've grown they simply aren't the same for you. They served their purpose then but they don't serve the same purpose anymore.
I remember I went on some super expensive 2 week psychological program retreat thing to supposedly help people and one activity they did was get a whole bunch of adults to play as if they were children. They were trying to get people back to that childlike center. It doesn't really work but it's a tool they used because they knew not a lot of adults have that ability to feel joy/pleasure in the manner they did when they were a child.
You use drugs as an example. What if life is a drug and I've already experienced the highs enough there's no high left for me to chase or worse the only highs left for me to chase will ruin me in the process of chasing like a meth addict chasing the next high?
You say what I'm experiencing is not normal. Or maybe lots of normal people just haven't had the same highs as me so they still have things to chase? What do you think I should do? Take drugs? Go to a psychologist? Those are both laughable and would make things worse not better.
Exactly, you can't replicate the experience of doing something for the first time. And no, I wouldn't recommend either of those options. Drugs would indeed make things worse, and psychologists are full of crap. If you've grown bored with this world, then you should turn your attention to things not of this world.
I went pretty hard into that side of things. I just could never get into it. The spiritual realm just seems no better to me than reading a fantasy novel.
I went hard into Christianity, then Evola's work, then Hindu and Buddhist stuff... It was fun while I learned about it but then it must stopped doing much for me. Another distraction for a time.
I also tried fighting and did Muay Thai for a bit and was big into weigh lifting and stuff but that never really resonated with me either.
The best description of a lot of learning and training I've ever heard was on here where someone said it just feels like studying for an exam you never take and that's what I feel like learning and training is. Same with spirituality also.
Understandable. There's an overwhelming amount of books and teachers on those subjects, and I don't care much for ideology or abstractions. If you haven't experienced it, then maybe you will someday. All I can say is that boredom isn't an issue for me.
This happens when you don't value anything. If there is something you truly value, you will be looking to find it or create it in purer forms. For example, video games. The favorite games from your childhood were great, but even better games can be made - revolutionary ones, even. Unfortunately, that is really hard and the people in the industry kind of suck at it now. If you loved games, finding a worthy developer to bankroll or embarking on the challenge of creating the next great FPS mechanic or RPG system would easily absorb your attention.
It doesn't sound like you're into them though. From what I can tell, you find pleasure in things you can simply buy like travel and sex. These things will never be that special because no humanity is required, just cash. The lack of meaning in your life, therefore, is not surprising.
The frontier or pioneer mindset is a large part of what you lack, imo. That may be because many pioneers were historically motivated to build a better future for the next generation. The desire to give to others comes from God, and as He withdraws from our world, that is fading. Another powerful source of fuel for the frontier mindset, though, is adrenaline. You could always switch your career to something that is guaranteed to put your life on the line, like deep sea crab fishing. For some people, that makes life meaningful.
At the minimum, you should move somewhere else. There are thousands of other places you could live, literally an inexhaustible array of possibilities, many of which would be more interesting than the boring drone apartments you seem to be living in.
The only thing I've truly valued in life throughout my whole life was friendship. I like traveling because I have fun experiences with other people, which is the only thing I value: doing things with others and enjoying the company of others. I'm a very social person I guess in that regard.
So I do try to seek this out but it's not easy. I find the more I try sometimes the harder it is.
I've lived in 9 different cities in Canada already. If I move it has to be in a different country. Canada isn't it. Problem is being able to get a comparable job in a diff country where I can still enjoy life. That's tough. Moving to a diff country and being poor isn't necessarily going to improve things for me.
Relationships with people are only second in meaning to your relationship with God, so you seem to be in good shape on that. However, the strongest friendships are formed by filling each other's mutual needs as well as pursuing the same quests in life. From what you described, it sounds like the people around you are satiated on lib dopamine sources and don't seem to feel much in the way of a higher calling, so you're going to strike out on both those fronts. As far as making true friends while traveling and blowing a ton of cash, idk that sounds very hard.
One way to find decent people who truly need you is to get really good at a particular skill. If you have any drive for a craft, I'd look into that.
Going international does carry risk, but you're in a more comfortable position than most. Your investment income alone could tide you over hard times. As far as the risk analysis goes, I'm no statistician, but I look at it this way: you have some % chance of ending up in a bad spot if you make the move, but your chance of living a gray, torturous existence is 100% if you stay in Canada. Thus, moving is a fait accompli.
I was trying to move to Thailand for a bit. I after got a job in Warsaw years ago... Maybe I should try that again.
You are right about the get really good at something. Only thing I know I'm way better at than most people is financial decisions. I can figure the value of something and whether it's a good investment or not way better than anyone else. Not that useful of a skill because once you get good at it you realize most real money in this world is made through the use of the government's power which I have no control over. Most other money is fairly accurately priced more or less.
Jeffrey Epstein was said to be in that state by people around him. Except for when he was fucking some underage sloots he felt nothing but existential dread.
I don't enjoy helping people. I used to do a lot of volunteering and charity work when I was younger. I just found most people don't really need the help. Most people's problems in life are of their own making and I feel justice is a higher calling than charity. What most people need is to face the consequences of their actions instead of being helped by others so they never have to. I think, at least for Canada, the best help for everyone that people can receive is no help at all. Stop feeding the animals. Only then can these people truly be motivated to elevate themselves.
I have assets and each month I acquire about $3000 more assets. My income is as high as it will ever get. There's absolutely 0 way for me to reasonably increase it anymore. I've capped out. It's a matter of luck and timing at this point rather than anything in my control.
Your income is only as high as the risk level you're willing to take on. It doesn't sound like you want to increase risk with a lower chance of return. That's reasonable but don't act like it's completely impossible.
Time to become a superhero and use your money to buy high-tech gadgets, like Batman.
I like taking risk. I gamble lots, for fun. Not all risks are worth taking though. Anyone could take their life savings and put it on red at the casino but most people don't. Why? That's because they know it's a bad risk. On average, you will lose. I work in finance. One of my previous job titles was risk manager. I essentially have a master's in stats specializing in valuing risk. I know what are good risks and what aren't. Most risks out there are bad risks but the only reason people take them is because they don't know how to measure risk. You won't hear the stories of the people whose risk failed but you will hear of the successes. Anytime I see a risk worth taking, I take it.
My favorite superhero is Thanos and he just seemed to have immense power rather than gadgets. Batman and Ironman are filthy rich though, which I will never be. If I had that kind of money I probably would do shit like Elon Musk. Just buy companies to troll people for the lawls.
I agree what's going on in Palestine and Syria is pretty bad. Who should I be helping to bring down the American and Israeli governments to stop what's going on there? Helping the individual people impacted doesn't seem to properly address the underlying issue. That is, the American and Israeli governments and the shadow oligarchy that supports them. I'm pretty sure to stop them, I'd need to become a terrorist though...
There's always someone who wins the game of poker, always. It doesn't mean everyone playing has a reasonable chance of winning. Why aren't you President of the United States? There's always a president every 4 years, just try harder... That's a false end to pursue. If one was truly on a trajectory to become president they'd already know. Most people's lives can be accurately determined based on their situation in life when they were 20yo. There's exceptions but those exceptions tend to be based on chance more than anything else.
How does one jump out of the matrix. I imagine everyone here, yourself included, is still in the Matrix so I'm not sure if that answer can be found here.
Correct. I've been trying to find an answer for your ask as somebody in the same boat but cannot think of one.
I think the problem with charity work and volunteering is that the whole thing is set up like a job. Or a government funded program. In either case, it takes a lot of the human component out of the experience and doesn't actually feel as meaningful. And I agree, a lot of peoples' challenges are their faults. Not always, but fairly often.
Even so, sometimes all it takes is a single act that makes someone's day a little bit better, and it can make a bigger difference than you realize.
The people who often most need and deserve help are often the people who never ask for it. Charities reach the wrong people more times than they reach the right people. In my experience, anyhow. I prefer making friends and helping my friends.
Aye, I've found that to be quite true as well.
I tend to prefer that as well, for a myriad of reasons. At least with friends you'll usually know what's going on and what kind of assistance you can render.
Still, it can sometimes be rewarding helping out a random stranger you come across who's clearly down on their luck. Just sort of depends on the situation really.
Also a good tax write-off and if you have no scruples, starting foundations is a way to acquire more money from suckers.
You're heading for an Oscar Wilde kind of life from what it sounds like.
You probably won't like to hear it now (especially if you consider religion to be a "lost cause"), but I recommend finding God and genuine love in your life. There is something transcendent about a personal relationship with your Creator and Father.
Worldly things ultimately lead to shallow dead ends, as you are finding. You might find some passion that temporarily stirs you, but it'll eventually end up leading to the same place as all the others.
Maybe if you want to, you can try to temper and expand your mind with an exploration into things like ethics and philosophy (which are often dead ends ironically if you follow the wrong people, but they might be the kinds of dead ends that get you thinking on the right path if you are careful enough to avoid falling too far down into their pits). It sounds like you aren't being challenged in any meaningful ways.
Alternatively you can either go be a mountain main innawoods somewhere and figure out what creature comforts you can enjoy until you die, or figure out a way to the top of the hierarchy so that society serves you and not the other way around, that might be entertaining to witness if you can pull it off.
The latter has been what always has interested me. Maybe I need to reevaluate it. I did find God and we did our thing but that's it. God seems to enjoy keeping me in this place for whatever purpose.
As you say, anything worldly is fleeting but anything out of this world is out of this time so at best it's a dream to me.
Saving souls is something with timeless results that you can perform in this world. Moreover, finding true love in this world, while the tiniest fraction of what God has in store for those who believe in him, is still an imprint of the divine on us and something that can help carry you through difficult times in your life and give you hope.
It sounds like you haven't done a true inward look on what you really value and why you value them (or even if they're worth valuing in the first place).
Finding God isn't a mere task to be completed and done with, its a relationship you carry with you both your whole earthy life, and the eternal life beyond. Or to rephrase it, you can find God, but it sounds like you haven't made a proper connection with him. God is always with you and watching over you, and your life should be changing as a result... and if its not... something might be wrong.
I'd definitely recommend re-evaluating it. Your life sounds like its coming to a major crossroads and hopefully you make the right choice.
Find someplace better to live in and move.
Really, it sounds like where you're living is what's killing you. It's a bad fit, with people around that you don't mesh with, and no location nearby that you can skip out for a quick weekend to get away and do shit. As above, so below. Pop smoke and GTFO.
First of all, leave Canada, it's a fucking shithole.
Now that you've drained your finances somewhat, you can start saving again. Since you'll have moved to a based and redpilled location in the USA, you'll have time to meet other intellectuals and work with them or at least be friendly.
Get into politics locally at that point. You may be in a based state, but commies are filthy fucking infiltrators. Do your part to push back on scum for those of us who haven't won any rat races yet.
Yeah, Canada is actually a huge problem. The more I've traveled the more it becomes apparent just how bad Canada is. It might seriously be one of the worst white dominant countries in the world. UK, Australia and NZ give Canada a run for its money though.
I never found success in getting a job in the USA. I guess with $100k I could just pay for some overpriced school program and "wing it". That might be worth considering tbh. I'll have to reevaluate this. In the past I thought it was too much of a waste of money but now it seems I don't care about the money so maybe...
I like gardening/landscaping. Kind of nice to make my corner of the world incrementally better, and every year you get to see the results improve upon themselves.
Hmm, there is a communal garden right by where I live. Maybe I'll rent a plot. I'll wear my communist attire whenever I'm tending to the communal garden and act like I'm a big fan of Karl Marx. Could be entertaining...
Had a friend in college that rented a spot in the communal garden. Mostly people with little flower patches or a pathetic vegetable garden with some carrots and a tomato plant.
My friend was an engineer (at the time, now Microbiology). Dude put together a tomato and vegetable pipeline that put everyone else to shame. Well built 5-foot chain link fences to train the tomatoes to and make them easy to pick, irrigation system to make it easy to water, and black landscaping fabric to cover the dirt to hold in water and keep the plants warmer so they'd produce more.
It was almost comical to go pick stuff with him because we're just a couple of early-20s college kids that look like captains of industry compared to the locals.
Hahaha, I mean. Truthfully, if I did a communal garden it wouldn't be to garden, it would be to chat with the other gardeners.
My mother has a huge garden that's 100% on a huge steep at an angle. She gets comments from the whole neighborhood on her garden. People who rent Airbnb's nearby leave reviews on the airbnb of how amazing the neighbors garden is haha. She gives me any vegetable I want in abundance all summer. She also has flower beds galore all around her yard. It's quite the sight. Gardening isn't for me though. If I ever did have a wife I would hope she gardens though.
You need to follow the white rabbit. It's your only hope. ;)
I'm not that far off from you maybe a few years behind on the money but close. Minus the inheritance, I'll be lucky to inherit $2 much less $2M. I don't do clubs. My friend group is small and I'm very selective on who I include in it. I have plenty of social for my tastes and don't want more.
So for a few suggestions based on what I do. Have you tried any business ventures? I've got some passive investment (rentals) but I'm actually looking to see if there's something that I can put more time into instead. I don't want to manage residential myself so I may switch to commercial real estate or self storage or something. Still speculation and it's tough to get into right now, but it gives me goals.
What family do you have? I'm close with my cousin's kid and my nephews and that takes up time and gives me a lot of what I'm missing out from in my own family situation, i.e. tending to the next generation. Video games, fun things in person, stuff like that. Stressful at times, sure, but I don't have to be their parents either.
Do you do anything creative? I don't necessarily mean music and arts unless that's your thing. For me it's building things and mechanical things. I'll probably do something like a kit car in the next few years. In the meantime I have a car I'm fixing up that's a little less involved.
It's like looking in a mirror, huh?
Hey, long time no see. What's new with you?
Loads! Been busy doing comedy shows around my city which has been fun. Just went out on a solo camping/hiking trip, stayed at a farmstead and met some good people while I was out on the trails, really been enjoying myself.
It's nice to have the means not only to survive, but also thrive and do the things I love.
By doing comedy shows you mean you're the standup comedian?
I do a bit of standup, but also do some sketch and improv too. It's a fun side hobby and it's cool to get paid to make people laugh.
Have you always felt this way or has this feeling grown as you've become more comfortable with your current situation?
I felt a little like this when I was younger but I thought as I improved myself, I'd better be able to do things I enjoy. Unfortunately, as I got older I realized the things I thought I enjoyed when I was younger were not what they seemed at all. Much of what I was sold about our society was false. As I've experienced more of society, the more I've felt this way.
LMAO. You ignore the meaning of life then complain your life is meaningless.
You can either support your race and have some kids. Or you can support your culture and do something meaningful like invent or start a business or do a creative endeavor.
Do you believe jews control White dominant societies?
How many jews are there? How many White people are there? Why then do jews manage to control the White dominant societies despite there being so many White people?
It is not quantity of people that is important but QUALITY of people. I would support my race if I could improve the genetics of my offspring but that requires the right woman which I don't have access to.
Business/Creative endeavors are good and it's not like I haven't tried either. They just aren't things you can will into existence and find success. I guess I'll keep on that tangent though. I've got a lot of folders of business and creative ventures... Maybe I'll try dusting them off.
What an... interesting thread lol. There's a few Patrick Batemans here
Below are some non-specific wafflings - for the man who has everything, what can anyone offer other than an orbital snapshot of all the spiritual wisdom in the universe:
Know thyself.
Nothing too much.
A pledge is a curse.
All existence is consciousness. The universe creates purpose (although not in the gay retarded way that figures like Harris and Dawkins believe). We're not the authors of meaningfulness. We're as much a channel for timeless objective values to materialise into the universe as we are creators of value. The Christians here might rephrase that as 'we are made in God's image'.
What do you value, in terms of your moral outlook? Why? Why really? If you can get past that question satisfactorily, how do you bring about a world with more of it, however little? I'm not asking so that you answer for me, this is just rewording 'know thyself' in different ways.
As for practical ideas, have you tried thinking smaller? Others mentioned innawoods type stuff, what about something along those lines but more manageable like a plot of vegetables, a flowerbed or a window garden. How about beekeeping? Some kind of tactile re-engagement with life to bring yourself closer to how it works at the smallest level and build back up.
Currently my own biggest moral headache is a rotting dead cat a few blocks from my house, by the side of the road. Despite hundreds of people passing by on foot for weeks, nobody has seen fit to move or dispose of it. None of the dozens of closer residents have seen fit to even put it in a bin. Now I think it's fallen on me to bury it in the nearby grassy patch somehow, because I believe it's an insult to life to let a probably cherished house pet become such an ugly spectacle. I get no satisfaction out of playing the community janitor and I'd prefer to ignore it, but I'm compelled by a sense of purpose to right what I see as a small thing wrong with the world. Maybe I'll feel good after, maybe I'll feel sick, maybe I won't get around to it at all and I'll continue to feel lame - the outcome and feeling good is not the point. The purpose is there regardless. Don't you have anything like that? Can you in fact identify a whole matrix of things like that, unified into a moral whole? That would be your life's purpose.
People who do drugs seem to be having a good time, why don’t you try some drugs?
Drugs make not doing drugs suck
I've done em all. Drugs are overrated imo. I still do them. They don't really do much for me.
Then I got nothing, sorry.
Use money for more extreme bouts of autism, you're pissing it away trying to find a sense of fulfilment in life thinking that you can live amongst the normies when you can't. I've made that mistake before back in the day and realised I simply can't gel with most normies under normal circumstances and feel happy doing it because all of their hobbies and interests simply don't interest me. It's not worth it trying to force yourself into societies' mould if that isn't you.
This may surprise people, but as an example I have a pretty intense interest in chemistry and radio signals etc. do I take part in that? No, because I researched the regulations around that, looked at the jail sentence for even fucking up declarations of what you're doing and noped the fuck out.
You mentioned that you're one of those people who actually does travelling and likes it rather than posts about it on their tinder profile to seem interesting. Maybe you should put the energy towards taking flying lessons or something like that? It's something I've considered, you start off on a Cesna and maybe look at something more advanced as a pilot once you get comfortable. Maybe take a look at a flight simulator and see if that's your thing.
The irony of it as well is if you learn to pilot that could well end up being a pay off if you want to travel a lot and it will cut down on the costs over the long run compared to paying the damn airlines and you have less chance of getting fucked by diversity to a certain extent. You're doing a lot better than most people if you earn good money, so that's what I would capitalise on big time if I were you. Travelling is something I'm considering as well as part of me trying to get out and meet people I would actually want to hang out with instead of being surrounded by leftists my whole life.
Seeing how you religious devotees try to convert someone who admits he's in a state of malaise has been instructive. Its one part tough guy posturing, two parts obstinate refusal to acknowledge that maybe religion isn't the solution
You probably haven't peaked as a father so despite your other accolades you're life is empty and purposeless. You will be forgotten without good children as a legacy.
What was your great great grandfather like? It's actually proven but most everyone is forgotten in a few generations even if they have children.
I know myself and children would not give me purpose. And given the way women are, the most likely scenario if I have children is divorce, alimony, child support and then once the children are old enough they give me a call once a month maybe seeing them once a year. But ultimately, nothing of my life changing. No thanks.
In another comment you said watching children play with toys is precious. Maybe you'd enjoy raising kids, and eventually find more purpose than you realize now.
I would enjoy raising kids under the right circumstances.
Those circumstances cannot be met.
For example, these are hard rules for me:
These are hard rules for me. I could never enjoy raising children if these weren't met. These are not going to be met and also meet the requisites I require in a wife to want to live with her and not kill myself.
Trust me, meeting my requisites for wife and children is just not possible to be met. I know. I spent almost a decade looking. After a while one has to move on. That's not the avenue for me.
My great great grandfather was like me. It's written in my genes to be like him. My son has his name. He was an inventor who designed different engines. My father is an engineer. His father as well. His father as well.
You sound like you're bored, which makes sense when you consider you don't take any real risks. You travel and gamble to simulate real risk. Your life is empty and you are trying to fill it with more waste.
You won't truly know yourself until you lose yourself in service to your family. It's scary but you cling to this lame identity of finance wagie with lots of materialism.
Cool, can you send me your 18yo daughter to get started on the family thing? I'll keep her housed in Afghanistan though because I don't want her to legally be entitled to anything of mine. That should be fine with you, right?
If all life is, is simply propagating the next generation without anything else worthy of cause inbetween then I say end it. Humanity isn't worth to keep going.
I'm not materialistic at all, hence why materialism doesn't do anything for me. Actual materialistic people actually do get a high on acquiring things. I don't. I blew money specifically because I'm not materialistic. To me, the experience is always worth more than that material.
Lol you're the big man with all the resources, go find her. I didn't say the second paragraph either. You're the one feeling empty, not me. And if you can't keep her, you can join the long line of men that failed with women. Most of them were resourceless so at least they had a good reason for failing.
"Experiences" are just another form of consumerism, this time its just some activity you have to pay for curated and marketed to you. So, if you don't love stuff and "experiences", stop living a life that you measure based on your salary, your house, your car, and your tourist "experiences."
You were me before I had children and a loving wife. I was bored. I had excess money with nothing to spend it on. I traveled and spent my resources on "experiences" and even threw money away gambling. I felt nothing when I lost 10k$ one day.
Now I stay up at night because my son has a stomach ache. I love caring about something more than myself and my family's love for me is more fulfilling than millions of dollars. No lie. The consumer life you are living doesn't seem to be much of a life for you at all based on your post. Good luck!
I'm glad you found a purpose in life in your child and family. You should be thankful for that because not every man will get that even if he tries. I think some genetic analysis study I read suggested only about ~40% of men ever born have had children.
I did pursue that path before when I was younger but nothing came of it. Unfortunately, that path is closed off to me now.
You lost your reproductive capacity?
No, I lost access to suitable women for procreating.
I would only procreate with a skinny, submissive, 18yo virgin white girl. This woman was already unattainable when I was younger but now she's for sure unattainable as I've aged.
I know myself and my genetics. If I procreated with a woman who was anything but I would be setting myself up for misery as well as my kids. I would just be creating a new cycle of unhappiness rather than breaking the cycle and improving the outcome of my children. I would be engaging in dysgenics instead of eugenics. From my perspective, procreating for the sake of procreating is not a worthy cause in itself. I must procreate to elevate my genetic lineage rather than degrade it otherwise the most noble thing to do is end the line.
You know who procreates for the sake of procreating? Criminal men with broken families living in poverty. They sweep into one single mothers house to pop a new kid into her and then move along to the next. I don't consider these men anyway superior just because they created a child. Jesus Christ had no children that doesn't mean he failed in life. Life is not about creating kids for the sake of kids. If I am going to have kids, I must create better kids than myself and I cannot do that because I do not have access to the women this would be possible with.
Consider something like The Fun Pimps did maybe? One of the main devs used to own a construction company and sold it to pursue creating 7 Days to Die.
It's seemed like a pretty chill and cozy set up for the devs from what I've seen with livestreams. They get to pursue some creative passions, create a community, offer up a fun and satisfying game to that community with regular updates, etc. And you don't necessarily have to be technically capable so long as you have the money and qualified team you can trust.
They've remained pretty damn immune to wokeness too, since they don't really bother with taking in investors or going public. They just do what they want to do, the way they want to, and enjoy the ride. And you
Another thing to consider might be to look into some mentorship sorts of opportunities, or something else of a charitable nature for others. Sometimes passing on some knowledge or helping other people out in general is its own kind of rewarding and worthwhile experience. And no, I'm not just referring to financial, but something where you're actually interacting with other people and making some kind of a difference.
This is tricky to give advice on because there's a lot you've already accomplished. If you haven't tried starting a business from scratch then maybe that's something you can try? I've tried in the past a few times to no avail yet but from that I've learnt that ideas are cheap and execution is key. There's a lot of challenges and things to learn along the way.
If the material world bores you then I'd suggest trying to explore the non-physical world. There's a lot to learn with meditation and there are advanced meditations if you look for them. This is a good place to start with advanced meditation https://youtu.be/Xr5dkZhLtRM?si=iFse27L2vxHzlOvh