I figured I'd post this here because I'd probably get the highest quality feedback...
Essentially, I've already beaten the game of life based on most objectives people have. I've gone as far as feasibly possible on my own. I don't know how to elevate my situation anymore. I earn $150k/yr. I only need to do about 2 hours of actual work a day to get my job done so I just spend most my day shitposting on the internet because I've got nothing better to do. I already live in one of the best cities in Canada. I have a nice house, a nice car and I've got $100k sitting in my bank account. I'm situated to inherent about $2m. I could probably retire if I just saved my money at about 45-50yo and maintain the same standard of living as now. I have 0 "negative" influences on my life. No stress from anything. I eat healthy. I go to the gym. I'm in shape. I play summer and winter team sports. I have a bit of a social life and hang out with people on average probably once a week outside of work.
The problem is that life is boring as fuck for me. I don't really enjoy much of what I get up to. I feel like my whole existence is just working for other people's benefit instead of my own. I'm just a tax payer for the government's interest. I have no life of my own it seems. I just exist to fulfil a role for everyone else in society. That's how I feel anyhow.
Video games are also boring to me. I can barely play an hour of any game before I get bored of it.
The only enjoyment I seem to get out of life is when I travel but that's only because I blow tons of money which isn't sustainable and then as soon as the trip is done, it's back to the grind. Kind of depressing to get 3 weeks out of the year where I actually felt like I was living and the other 49 weeks is just standby mode waiting for the next 3 weeks off to travel and blow a bunch of money.
Whenever I gaze into the lives of others around me most seem to be caught up in some sort of personal drama that in actuality is mostly fabricated because whomever is involved in the drama lacks the wisdom or competence to solve the drama. Most of the problems people are caught up can easily be solved but it almost seems like people feed on this drama and it's what gives their life meaning. That doesn't seem any better to me. That just seems like people trying to find something to distract their attention so they never have to fall into the situation I'm in and truly analyze if they're happy with their life.
All the "cultural" shit in our society just feels fake and contrived to me. I couldn't give a shit what TayTay or Kardashian is up to. All the politics is nothing but theatre for the masses. Nothing will change. Nothing that the media reports on matters. You have no control over any of it. It's a waste of energy, like every other avenue it seems. Media is boring. It's just all the same repetitive tropes. History is boring because it's all made up and anyone can make up whatever they want. Religion is also a lost cause for me. If all that matters is life after life then what about my life now. Just more holding pattern. Work to pay taxes to Rome until you die. I might as well just be dead now.
How do people manage through life? It's just so monotonous.
I spent most of my life trying to pursue career+women and both those ends seem entirely worthless. I already peaked on those fronts, now I'm supposed to enjoy the fruits of my hard work or something but there's nothing to enjoy.
So, I have a good income and stable situation. What would you guys do? What am I supposed to do? I've tried the basic join clubs and shit but frankly, I hate most other people. My kind of people are the Genghis Khans of the world. Maybe a Dionysus type. I find most people I meet in normal venues in the community are just dry, boring people living their monotonous lives too. All judging others from whatever sense of moral high ground they're standing on compared to others. Most seeing fun as vice. Canadians in general also seem to be too untrusting of others and guarded.
This life just seems to be a drag and it really shouldn't be because I do have a lot of good things going for me but I don't know how to turn what I have going for me into anything more. I feel like my existence at the moment is just to prop up a giant Ponzi scheme known as civilization.
Any advice?
You lost your reproductive capacity?
No, I lost access to suitable women for procreating.
I would only procreate with a skinny, submissive, 18yo virgin white girl. This woman was already unattainable when I was younger but now she's for sure unattainable as I've aged.
I know myself and my genetics. If I procreated with a woman who was anything but I would be setting myself up for misery as well as my kids. I would just be creating a new cycle of unhappiness rather than breaking the cycle and improving the outcome of my children. I would be engaging in dysgenics instead of eugenics. From my perspective, procreating for the sake of procreating is not a worthy cause in itself. I must procreate to elevate my genetic lineage rather than degrade it otherwise the most noble thing to do is end the line.
You know who procreates for the sake of procreating? Criminal men with broken families living in poverty. They sweep into one single mothers house to pop a new kid into her and then move along to the next. I don't consider these men anyway superior just because they created a child. Jesus Christ had no children that doesn't mean he failed in life. Life is not about creating kids for the sake of kids. If I am going to have kids, I must create better kids than myself and I cannot do that because I do not have access to the women this would be possible with.
The game of life is won by the survivors, not the most genetically perfect. You are just writing yourself off. Your genes are enough to survive now, why would they not be good enough in the future? Thats not really your call. We can only do our best.
Communists and other idealists also like to mentally live in the perfect world. They don't deal with reality. You're lost in imagination world and acting like a sore loser because the real world doesn't align with your expectations. Single cat lady feminists also live in that world waiting for their perfect man. I think we can both agree that those women are ridiculous, as if the only partner moving forward is the perfect man.
You ask for the ideal woman and get upset because she doesn't exist. The few women that do fit that criteria wouldnt want you anyway. However imperfect people find fulfillment and happiness you will never experience because you think you are above it all. You speak of Jesus Christ yet are you filled with self pride and ego. Humble yourself and you'll find meaning in this life.
Long winded way of saying "lower your standards". I would rather die than lower my standards in women. If that means ending thousands of years of hard work by my ancestors to get me here then good, they have only themselves to blame for creating me in the way in which I am such that I have the standards that I do.
I will not lower my standards.
Okay have fun being depressed and lonely. Don't blame your ancestors for your bloated ego lol. You can't even take ownership of that.