I figured I'd post this here because I'd probably get the highest quality feedback...
Essentially, I've already beaten the game of life based on most objectives people have. I've gone as far as feasibly possible on my own. I don't know how to elevate my situation anymore. I earn $150k/yr. I only need to do about 2 hours of actual work a day to get my job done so I just spend most my day shitposting on the internet because I've got nothing better to do. I already live in one of the best cities in Canada. I have a nice house, a nice car and I've got $100k sitting in my bank account. I'm situated to inherent about $2m. I could probably retire if I just saved my money at about 45-50yo and maintain the same standard of living as now. I have 0 "negative" influences on my life. No stress from anything. I eat healthy. I go to the gym. I'm in shape. I play summer and winter team sports. I have a bit of a social life and hang out with people on average probably once a week outside of work.
The problem is that life is boring as fuck for me. I don't really enjoy much of what I get up to. I feel like my whole existence is just working for other people's benefit instead of my own. I'm just a tax payer for the government's interest. I have no life of my own it seems. I just exist to fulfil a role for everyone else in society. That's how I feel anyhow.
Video games are also boring to me. I can barely play an hour of any game before I get bored of it.
The only enjoyment I seem to get out of life is when I travel but that's only because I blow tons of money which isn't sustainable and then as soon as the trip is done, it's back to the grind. Kind of depressing to get 3 weeks out of the year where I actually felt like I was living and the other 49 weeks is just standby mode waiting for the next 3 weeks off to travel and blow a bunch of money.
Whenever I gaze into the lives of others around me most seem to be caught up in some sort of personal drama that in actuality is mostly fabricated because whomever is involved in the drama lacks the wisdom or competence to solve the drama. Most of the problems people are caught up can easily be solved but it almost seems like people feed on this drama and it's what gives their life meaning. That doesn't seem any better to me. That just seems like people trying to find something to distract their attention so they never have to fall into the situation I'm in and truly analyze if they're happy with their life.
All the "cultural" shit in our society just feels fake and contrived to me. I couldn't give a shit what TayTay or Kardashian is up to. All the politics is nothing but theatre for the masses. Nothing will change. Nothing that the media reports on matters. You have no control over any of it. It's a waste of energy, like every other avenue it seems. Media is boring. It's just all the same repetitive tropes. History is boring because it's all made up and anyone can make up whatever they want. Religion is also a lost cause for me. If all that matters is life after life then what about my life now. Just more holding pattern. Work to pay taxes to Rome until you die. I might as well just be dead now.
How do people manage through life? It's just so monotonous.
I spent most of my life trying to pursue career+women and both those ends seem entirely worthless. I already peaked on those fronts, now I'm supposed to enjoy the fruits of my hard work or something but there's nothing to enjoy.
So, I have a good income and stable situation. What would you guys do? What am I supposed to do? I've tried the basic join clubs and shit but frankly, I hate most other people. My kind of people are the Genghis Khans of the world. Maybe a Dionysus type. I find most people I meet in normal venues in the community are just dry, boring people living their monotonous lives too. All judging others from whatever sense of moral high ground they're standing on compared to others. Most seeing fun as vice. Canadians in general also seem to be too untrusting of others and guarded.
This life just seems to be a drag and it really shouldn't be because I do have a lot of good things going for me but I don't know how to turn what I have going for me into anything more. I feel like my existence at the moment is just to prop up a giant Ponzi scheme known as civilization.
Any advice?
I was trying to move to Thailand for a bit. I after got a job in Warsaw years ago... Maybe I should try that again.
You are right about the get really good at something. Only thing I know I'm way better at than most people is financial decisions. I can figure the value of something and whether it's a good investment or not way better than anyone else. Not that useful of a skill because once you get good at it you realize most real money in this world is made through the use of the government's power which I have no control over. Most other money is fairly accurately priced more or less.
Sounds like decent possibilities to me. A couple of friends said Thailand was the best SEA country on their tour. Poland has its good points too.
Having a nose for finances is not common, needless to say. If you paired it up with another craft or skill then it could be extremely valuable to people in that field.
I'd be remiss if I didn't tell you the only true fulfillment is to align yourself with God's purpose for your life. That's not a matter of asking what God can do to give meaning to your life, but rather understanding the full nature of sin and what Jesus did to save you. But people usually need to come to a place of acute need before they're open to hearing this, so if you're not there yet then good luck with deciding on the move.
edit: I saw that you stated you went hard into Christianity for a time. Why it didn't "work" for you I won't assume, but maybe a better starting point for you is whether you recognize ultimate truth. Once you appreciate the truth, then what follows is natural logic.
I feel like God's plan for me is this path that I'm on. Why? Because it's not enough. God knows that. If I had enough I wouldn't be using my brain to try something else and this topic even was part of God's plan. I wouldn't be asking if I wasn't trying. I will get there but I will get there the way God has in store for me.
I didn't think I would like Thailand as much as I did. The people there are a breath of fresh air compared to Canada. So unguarded, trusting and just enjoyable to be around. If someone doesn't like Thailand I feel like they may need to deep dive into who they truly are and if they're a good person.
Christianity didn't work for me because I still have salt in this Earth. My heart isn't stone. I still have fight in me for this place, now. Christianity is good. I like the religion. It just doesn't do anything for me in this place, right now. I believe it's a right religion. I believe it's a good religion. It's just not a religion that can serve me at this moment.
What do you think I should combine finance with? Most of the finance industry is a scam, tbh. Most people who want to use finance in this world only mean to use it for evil. Using finance for good is not an easy task. I have no interest of scamming people even if it would make me a millionaire. I'm not that kind of person.
I definitely think it's possible that this is God's plan for you. Having said that, you're talking about salt and stone... I'm not sure if you're picking those metaphors on purpose but the Bible says exactly the opposite. You have a heart of stone before you accept salvation and God gives you a heart of flesh. You are the salt of the earth under God's commandments and when you leave, you actually lose your saltiness. Also re: still having fight in you, the Great Commission is the Christian's highest task on earth and that definitely can't be accomplished in heaven.
It sounds like you got into Christianity on a philosophical level but you didn't accept the Bible as truth and therefore don't feel a burden to change. Without that, everything else is a nonstarter.
With finance, my thought is that a lot of people who are really good at a skill don't fully understand the business side and could use help with that. For example, if you were into building cars and knew a guy who was a savant at it, he might be looking to get his own shop or contract with a guy who has shop space. People will often make bad or blind investment decisions and hope their skills will carry the day. You could put the guy some knowledge. Ditto with building miniatures, organic foods, developing video games, any small business idea out there.