Wow... Well it takes one easy step:

1: stop being a degenerate retard.

And I mean that in the broadest of ways. Look at your list and just don't do that shit. Your life has been nearly infinitely easy up to this point. Harder times are coming. Stop all the degeneracy you listed. Take care of your mind, your body, stop needing stuff, instead produce stuff. Plant a garden. Raise animals and eat them. If you are poor then borrowing money to tithe to a school won't help you. Use your mind instead. Go sit and look at how the world works. Develop a skill that is uncommon. Not something everyone wants to do.

Most of all take complete and absolute responsibility for your life all these failures are your fault entirely. Internalize that until you truly believe it. It is YOUR FAULT. It always was your fault and always will be your fault. So act accordinly. Things are about to get a hell of a lot harder very soon.

My guide to male human happiness:

Be outside in nature 30 minutes a day. Most animals don’t do well in captivity and that includes humans. Humans need Vitamin D and they get that mostly from exposure to the Sun. I have tried Vitamin D supplements and take them, but they don't give the same feeling when I get sunlight from outside. In addition, the view of nature is aesthetically pleasing to humans and calming.

Exercise 30 minutes a day. It helps relieve stress and improves your health. Exercise raises your testosterone which makes you feel more motivated. You are also working towards and goal and improving yourself which will improve your mood. Through the most of human history, we have had to do much more physical labor to survive, the world we live in now where we can survive with almost no labor is new.

Help out or work together on something with a family member or friend. Through most of human history we have had to work together with our neighbors and family. We need them in case our crop fails or the environment changes drastically. We yearn for someone to depend on in case of emergency and without one we feel uneasy.

Take complete control over something small in your life and continually improve. Humans have lived simple lives through most of their history. For the most part, extra work means better results. If you are worried about the next winter, you can plant more crops or salt more meat. Our current situation is much more complex and we don’t have as much control over our lives. By taking control over something small, you can feel like you have control over your life.

Stay away from all politics and social media especially .win. Most of us do not use Twitter, but we come here to see the most ugly and vile posts from Twitter anyways. These places can be demoralizing. If you don’t have control over your own life, you shouldn’t give a shit about how the world is collapsing.

This may sound like a lot but lots of tasks overlap. Hiking could cover 2 or 3 of them depending on your goals. Going to the gym with a friend can be 3 of them. If you chop wood for your parents, you are doing all 5 at the same time.

I've been down that road of dropping classes in college. More than once. A lot more than once. I did eventually finish, but I also learned college was not for me. I also relate to a lot of your anxiety things, perhaps ADHD, self-confidence, etc. In a lot of ways that stuff went away on it's own once I got my life settled. I don't think it was necessarily rooted in mental issues that I needed a therapist to give me drugs and tell me I'm really a different gender, but because I wasn't proud of myself and my life. If I am not personally happy with my own accomplishments, how can I present to others a positive image? I can't really, I'm not that good of a faker.

My advice, first, quit worrying about stuff that's in the past. I get that maybe some of it is difficult to get beyond, but there's plenty of easy shit we can throw out. So you bombed school this term? Great, who cares. It's done and makes no difference now. Second, and probably most important, I think it's time to find yourself a marketable skill so you can add some value and independence to yourself. You don't generally get those things from a university. I'd focus that effort on a trade school or apprenticeship. If you are willing to pay someone for a service, see about learning it for yourself. There has to be something like that you are interested in. Maybe it becomes your long time job, maybe it doesn't. I started as a field tech for an electrician outfit when I was 19. I didn't know where I was going with it when I started. My work now is only semi-related, but I did that for 8 years, paid for college myself working into my schedule as best I could. I use all the little skills I picked up in that job to this day. Social skills, problem solving, dealing with difficult people, working with my hands/tools, etc. I all picked up way more in that work than I ever did at college.

To your other post, remember whatever some people did to you or whatever, that's also in the past. If you want vengeance, beat them by being successful. Move on to the point that you look down on them and laugh at how pathetic they are.

I'm sure some of this might be hampered by the situation in Australia, but the point is find something you can work towards despite the situation. Others won't like this comment, but don't be afraid to give in on something if you need to. If it's a mask or having to scan your phone or whatever. Draw your line in the sand you won't cross. Everything up to that point is a tool in the toolbox.

College today is highly overrated. Depending on your field, you might be able to get a job in your industry without one, but it will be harder. If you can, build a portfolio and find a company willing to take you on to get experience. This will be the toughest part, but if you can get 2-3 years under your belt, many companies won't care if you have a degree or not.

Barring that, trades are a good way to go. Look up trade schools in your area or seek out an apprenticeship. You can also look up local career fairs and shop around. Associate jobs will probably be available (remember there's a labor shortage), find one that has some manner of career track. If you insist on finishing college, see if any companies have a college program.

Last but not least, do what you've gotta do to be successful. This will be unpopular on this site, but if your vaccine status is keeping you from advancing, weigh your options. If you cannot afford to be unemployed for the next few years, and the only opportunities available to you require the vax, you might have to cave and do whatever you need to do to get the good citizen stamp. It sucks, and is woefully unjust, but you must work with the cards that you are dealt.

If you can't do that, more power to you, but realize you are taking the tough road ahead. If all else fails, DO NOT end everything. Do whatever you can to fight the tyrannical government that made this situation so much worse. Join protests, get your story out, etc. etc. Make them look you in the eye and acknowledge what they are doing, and join the political groups that are dedicated to taking them down. Just don't do anything stupid.

"You have to figure it out. Stand up and walk. Keep moving forward. You've got two legs, so stand up and use them. you are strong enough to make your own path." --Hiromu Arakawa

Focus on improving your physical health and the mental health will usually follow.

To echo the other comments here. University isn't for everyone, and unless you have a strong desire to study an in demand field and follow through then it is a waste. The effort and money is better spent elsewhere.

Take up running or some sort of physical exercise. That gets you in shape and you might find a reasonable woman that cares about being in shape as well. As a side benefit it will help reduce depression.

I don't know where you live, but around here young men can get into trades pretty easily, and if you're willing to work hard then advance pretty quickly and make good money.

You can devote your life to Jesus and find a good church. Many people find hope and meaning there, because the world offers none, especially not in the current western countries. Just try a few, and make sure to find one that isn't totally cuckold.

All of the above will require effort on your part. Blame the curse of Adam if you want Genesis 3:17 - 3:19, but it doesn't matter, that is the way it is.

I guess I should add: I've had a tough life. I've seen, heard and experienced some horrific shit. I've seen the very worst of humanity (well, not genocide, but... Torture, yes. Death, yes. Burning buildings with people in them? Also yes.). And yeah, I have a lot of guilt (so much guilt), and a huge pile of regret.

It's why I'm the neurotic I am today. I most definitely have PTSD from it. So... There's that.

I have to live with that every day. Every moment. I never know when I'm gonna remember something terrible that I've seen, done or experienced, and that... Makes shit hard.

Sounds stupid, doesn't it? I promise you, it's... Not that easy. But I try to get up, and push through, and keep fighting, because if I don't..? Well I would be gone, by now, and if nothing else, the thought of letting the bastards who did that stuff to me win, is... Well, my sheer disgust at even the thought of that is perhaps part of the bitterness and spite keeping me alive. Let's just say that much.

Talk less. Do more. You give your brain too Much credit. Listen to your body instead. Your thoughts will lead you down dark corridors that may not accurately represent reality, because the brain does not primarily deal with the present, it attempts to mostly prevent negative future outcomes.

Try to experience more. React. Exert yourself. Breathe hard. See and smell the world around you. Touch and allow yourself to be touched. Feel the sun on your skin, take note of your sensations. But don’t intellectualize about it. Just feel the world around you and enjoy what is, stop worrying about what will be.

First of all, fuck university. Get yourself into a trades school/apprenticeship at a college (or whatever it is that is your equivalent - and not the private chain ones like "DeVry" or that crap, either, your local community college or whatever equivalent in Aussieland.) The worst thing you can do is wallow - that's just the road to self-abuse.

Also, if you see a job opportunity, try to grab it, even if you know there's no chance of getting it. Or so you think. Anyway, try to pick something more or less recession-proof, and that can't be exported. My personal recommendation? Go get your forklift/Genie lift tickets, as well as First Aid, Confined Space, and any safety tickets like that first and foremost. H2S Alive! doesn't hurt, either. Or whatever equivalents.

And yeah, I recommend a walk every morning, weather permitting. It doesn't have to be far, or long. Or walk when you can instead of taking a car. It's both cheaper and healthier.

As far as religion goes, well, no one needs any middle man between themselves and their god.

I was about as far as you are now. I've dropped out several times. I had problems with relationships etc.

I know is hard, it took me years to change and I still get down and unmotivated.

My advice:

1. Find something that you can see yourself doing. Agriculture, mechanic, electrician, customs officer, paramedic, fireman, work on a fishing boat, oil rig what ever you can see yourself doing - not necessarily something that you would enjoy, Enjoyment comes from doing a good job regardless. Office jobs are cancer, they are full of leftists because it allows for lazy people to prosper but it is still an option.

One of the worst things in highschool is that they make you think that you have to go to uni and get an office / lab job. Customs officers for instance make a ton of money but no one will tell you that at school.

One of my regrets is not exploring enough with different jobs. Some seem to be very interesting.

2. Make a list and then judge witch is the most likely to happen and apply yourself to it.

3. Apply for more then one thing if possible, very important.

3** If you need to take classes focus on that one thing -eg. become a paramedic.

4. If you get in, negotiate like you are an asset not a beggar. Trust me on this, it is important. You have a lot more potential then you think, you do not need handouts.

5. Start working out, gradually, do it at home. Do it for your mental health not how you look. That comes slowly over a period of time but mental health comes fast.

6. Spend less time on games and porn. Try to go without watching porn for a week at a time. Games are good for escapism but you should use them for boredom, escapism makes you lazy.

7. Try religion, praying to God about your problems helps. It got me thru hard times even though I was agnostic.

8. Get yourself on a path and keep your spirits up. Your confidence is your greatest asset.

9. Have schedules and keep to them. If you fail get motivated and not depressed.

YouTube “Jesus testimony” and watch some of the videos, not the ones with really good production value

While you're making your decisions, perhaps you should play some video games or watch some movies to get your mind off of your negative self-talk. Clearly you have become trapped in a self-reinforcing pattern of thinking. There is no need to continue to spiral around the same old thoughts all the time.

Be patient with yourself. Let yourself have fun. Take a vacation for a while. Buy a tent and go camping for a few days. Walk down some local hiking trails. Reconnect with nature. Let the birds soothe you with their songs. Your problems will still be there for you to deal with whenever you get around to it.

This is way above my level of expertise. Still, telling you to contact a therapist will probably land you in gender reassignment because women are like that, taking advantage of broken people for profit or the pleasure of inflicting pain.

I guess that's probably the first thing I'd do in your situation. Get rid of the "better halves" from my life. Don't chase relationships.

Next, you need something to do and feel productive. You could teach yourself how to invest in the markets. A lot of people are doing that. Just don't buy a ton of crypto and Gamestop shares because you'll be on an emotional roller-coaster. I'd advise starting with a practice account with fake money. Other than that..you could try to find a job you can do from home, tutoring or something like that. Pay down your debts quickly to avoid interest, unless they're student loans because those expire after a few years.

As for hobbies - just find something you like. Put political boycotts and agendas to the side until you have the mental state to take the fight again. Even if you really hate EA's wokeness, play FIFA if it makes you feel better, for example.

Some people suffer depression because of a chemical imbalance caused by being unfit, so maybe try to exercise more and see if it helps you?

I think most of your issues come from that creeping feeling that the future can only get bleaker. I feel it too sometimes, and I'm in a relatively good position even if I do get permanently removed from the workplace for being the subhuman unvaxxed.

I think your best bet for the near future is to distance yourself from political news for a while and distract yourself from what's going on as much as possible.

The first step is admitting your faults, and it sounds like you've got that down to a T. Maybe spending a bit too much time on that part, though. Honestly, the most important thing is that you do anything to keep busy. You sound like the kind of guy who spends too much time in his own head. Find any kind of hobby that keeps you busy. Drawing, programming, etc. Hell, you're here on KiA2 so I assume you have some interest in video games. Older games are cheap (sail the high seas if you have to) and usually better than today's trash. If you absolutely can't get out of your own head, consider some kind of music. There's some catharsis to be found in playing songs that fit your mood.

Second, just because you've dropped classes doesn't mean the academic year is wasted. Regardless of whether you were failing because the material was too hard or, more likely, because the online format just made things too awkward, now's a perfect time to stress-free self-study. I guarantee you'll actually learn better at your own pace anyway.

Third, "just lift bro" is a meme partially because it's true. Exercise does actually boost spirits. Even back when I had a job I fucking despised, my nightly 5 mile walk/run always made me feel a bit better. That shit's free, though I don't know what the status in your area is as far as lockdowns. Oh, and I never felt better than when I was taking boxing classes. That's the best socially-acceptable stress relief you'll ever get. Boxing isn't even that expensive, spend a little over $100 (that's in USD, don't know what it would be in your fucked up currency) on a heavy bag, hand wraps, and a cheap pair of gloves. I prefer a hanging bag, but a standing one should be fine too. If you don't take classes, though, I do recommend watching a few videos on proper punching form and being especially focused on your form the first few times at the bag. The second week at the bag I threw a bad cross and fucked up my wrist hard, that hand was entirely out of commission for about two weeks. And if you can't afford the bag and gloves, just shadowbox. Still pretty good exercise, a great way to practice form, and no risk of injury.

And as pithy as it may sound, better days are ahead.

Just lift, bro.

The reason so many people say this is that it works. Lifting regularly introduces structure and discipline to your chaotic life, giving you control over your otherwise out-of-control existence. Lifting increases your metabolism and testosterone, triggering weight loss, increased energy, increased sex drive, decreased anxiety and reduced depression.

Lifting weights is easily the fastest way to transform your life. Do it.

The key thing is this, it's not as bad as you think. It never is. When I was younger I also had thoughts of suicide, and the only thing holding me back was my fear of it and what my family would think about it if I made it happen. You know what I realized since then? The reason people feel suicidal is because they are overreacting to a situation, feeling pain, and making the assumption that "things will never get better than this" or "it will always be this way".

Only God knows the future, and thinking about the past or the future is a trick from Satan. So are emotions. Things "are bad" because you've believed into a lie, not because they actually are. You are judging your situation and your future, and yourself. Judging comes from anger/hatred. The hatred is not you and is not from you, just as the thoughts are not yours. Satan is trying to get you to despair and kill yourself, that is his goal.

What is the answer? You have to forgive. First your mother, and then your father. The state you find yourself in now is not the state that you were born in. You were made to be this way by your family and by other people in your life. (as they were made to be the way they are by their imperfect parents) Find a quiet place and examine yourself. Not in a neurotic way. Just relax and watch the thoughts that you have. Do not judge them as good or bad, and do not try to "clear your mind". Allow them to come and go without judgment. If you notice judgment, or you get angry, that's ok, just recognize it and let it go. What you will see eventually is that it's not you doing those things. There is a spirit within you that is causing you to feel despair, hopelessness, and rage.

It's not normal for a man to be emotional or suicidal. It's not normal to be depressed or have to "talk about your feelings". A man is supposed to be at peace. To be confident and strong, not aggressive and insecure. Do not judge yourself for not being this way since it was not your fault, but now is the time to overcome and be the real man you were supposed to be. A son of God, with Christ as your brother. He is the big brother that you look to when you feel like you will falter. God is the father that you always had within you and knew as a child. Your own father is Christ on Earth. He may be a poor example, but as a man, he is your path back to Christ and God within.

If you hate your parents (and anyone who feels the way you do certainly has hatred), then you need to go to them and forgive them for being imperfect examples. One thing I understand now that I know God is that there is nothing in this world that you need except him. Loneliness is not a thing when you have God in your life. You can let go of any worldly possession or attachment. No job, person, woman, whatever, can come close to God. Which means nothing can control you in life. The threat of the jab? Of not being able to work without it? It means nothing to me since I have God on my side. I don't have to think about it or plan for it. I just trust him and allow him to guide me in the way I need to go. The emptiness that you feel in yourself, which you try to plug with worldly things like diet, masturbation, TV, videogames, etc, is a longing for your father and your desire to reconnect with God.

And yes, you need to forgive everyone, even your enemies. Just as you cannot control yourself, they could not control themselves. The same spirit that is driving you towards destruction is what was driving them.

My country is fucked, remember. Things here are really quite bad. But not where I'm currently stuck (relatively speaking), and not where the Uni is, so much, either (woo for doxxing myself, more and more)...

I genuinely don't think I'm "intellectually" stupid. I'm just an immature, unmotivated, selfish, arrogant jerk, who can't set my mind to things, and gives up far too easily. Because I'm weak. Because I... Don't care enough? I'm not sure.

How do you know what you are supposed to be doing right now? Your plan was to go to University and...? Maybe the reason you aren't that into it is because you have tried to convince yourself that you need to do it. Maybe Uni is the right path for you, and maybe it's not. My point is that you don't know, but you are attempting to push yourself to go anyway. If you knew what you should be doing right now, there would be no hesitation or laziness. When you are hungry, are you capable of finding something to satisfy that hunger? Do you have hesitation or laziness then? If you could see what to do as clearly as you can see when and what you like to eat, then things would start getting done. The thing is that we don't know on our own what to do. God has a plan for each of us, but if we try to "go our own way" and fight against it, life becomes difficult.

Imagine if you couldn't figure out what to eat or when to do it. You just sat there for hours being indecisive. Doesn't that sound ridiculous? You know what you like and don't like to eat. Your body tells you when you are hungry. It's not supposed to be different for other things. You may not know exactly what you should be doing just yet, but if you have patience and wait, one day you will know what you need to do. First you must forgive though, or you will only see glimpses of the truth from time to time. You know what I'm talking about. When you see clearly what is going on, just like when you step outside and feel the warmth of the sun on your face. You don't need to question if the sun is out. You just know it. Everyone has that experience from time to time, and that is how God talks to us. Not with words, but with revelation.

I wish you the best on your journey. It takes courage to admit the truth about your situation and that you don't know how to fix it. That is the first step. Always focus on yourself. What you realize and learn about what is happening within you brings you closer to God.

My cultural background is wandering people, but I think the advice works here. Move.

You aren't in a happy place, and know it. Make a plan, get friends to help, and get away. Whatever is happening is happening, you don't have to deal with it. Let them destroy themselves, then comeback to rebuild.

I had to move from my home in the Pacific northwest to Florida. It was hard, but I recognized nothing was working or would work if I stayed. I had to give up a lot of stuff, and then get new stuff when I arrived. It takes work, and a ton of anxiety, but you can actually get out.

 unfit, slightly overweight,

Well there's yer problem.

Life sucks and everything is retarded. If you're taking anything that's going on right now seriously, you're doing it wrong.

Multiple western, first world countries are on the verge of collapse.

The global economy is dying and banks want to replace national currency with international fiat.

This vaccine they've forced on people is going to slowly knock people off over the next few years as the inflammation causes more and more damage.

Now isn't the time to give a shit about things like romantic relationships or college. Keep up appearances and do what you can on that front, but understand that it will be almost entirely worthless soon enough.

Instead, focus on the war effort. Get yourself into a position where, first and foremost, you can survive what's coming. Once that's set, work on building covert relationships and moving towards the ability for regional control after shit hits the fan.

If you've got time to bitch and moan online about how your life sucks, you've got time to plan vengeance against those who caused it when the world turns to hell.

Just thought I would add, seeing as "college isn't for everyone" keeps coming up...

I am capable of getting A's. And I do, when I do the work. Like, when I actually do it, and turn up to class, I can get right up there with the top of most of my classes... Which... Sounds arrogant, but it's true.

The problem is not my "academic abilities", it's my lack of motivation, my inattentiveness, my laziness, my... Unwillingness to put the work in, and I think my general lack of... Caring about anything enough.. I barely even fucking try, half the time, at least with my assignments. I don't get up, and I don't go to class. I'm a perfectionist - I hate handing stuff in, unless I'm 100% happy with it.

I don't know WHY any of this is, and there's a lot to unpack, there, sure. But I am, intellectually at least, capable of doing the work, well, even. I just fucking don't. Even when I know I should. :-/

Fucking pathetic, right??!

Other than some of the standard get your life together stuff people said [and by standard I don't mean that as an insult, as it is very good and important! Especially the stuff about giving yourself a good routine.] I don't know your beliefs but I am just gonna put it like this and let it be.... Devote your life to God. Don't expect it to be like the heresy of the prosperity gospel stuff, as I don't mean it like that. I mean legit start following God and humble yourself towards Him.

Anyway, I wish you the best, but dont' worry remember people have gotten through worse times!

It might sound shallow but hit the gym.

Do it regularly, respect the schedule, it will help with the discipline, and once you see the results it will help with confidence. At the same time, the endomorphin levels will help you with your state of mind. Once you sorted these out, things will slowly fall into place.

Hahahah you think your life is fucked and your so young you aren’t even out of school.

You’ll either take responsibility for your life or you won’t. Your a man. No one is coming to save you. No one will ever care about your life as much as you will.

Yes. Lift heavy things. Go for a walk. Get direct sunlight. Stop eating processed foods. Stop caring about things you have no control over.

Go get a job. Get an apprenticeship or work in a boatyard or go to trade school. Read the classic stoics. Get out of your head. The past is an illusion you torture yourself with. The future is anxiety. This moment is the only thing that is real.

Thanks all, for your input.

Sorry I didn't respond, prior to now. I'm not so great at that...

Anyway, most of this is good advice. Some... Is a bit unfair (you know who you are), but most of it is reasonable...

I think I'm increasingly realising that there's something... Wrong with me, mentally, and I will have to seriously do something about that. Some of you have suggested some good places to start. So thanks.

I'll try and get things to... A slightly better place, by next week.

I can't tell you how... Frustrating it is, living in this country (island piggy), right now... I just...

Every time I try to build myself up, and make plans, the (federal, state AND local) government here makes things so much fucking worse. And that's driving me up the wall. To say the least...

Anyway, I can't fight that, so I guess I just have to... Try and learn to live with it.

Shut the fuck up with this crybaby bullshit and grow some balls. You know why you feel miserable? Because you’re a fucking woman. If you can’t figure out your purpose on your own then just quit, coming on here asking to be coddled is just crying for attention so you can feel special. You gynocentric man babies are the worst, “I’m going to kill myself because I’m saddddd.” You know why you don’t have goals or a purpose? Because you’re a fucking woman. You’re just asking for someone else to come rescue you and give you purpose. If existence is so difficult then off yourself, but don’t be a bitch about it, starve yourself to death, let’s see how badly you actually want to die, pussy.

Thanks all, for your input.

Sorry I didn't respond, prior to now. I'm not so great at that...

Anyway, most of this is good advice. Some... Is a bit unfair (you know who you are), but most of it is reasonable...

I think I'm increasingly realising that there's something... Wrong with me, mentally, and I will have to seriously do something about that. Some of you have suggested some good places to start. So thanks.

I'll try and get things to... A slightly better place, by next week.

I can't tell you how... Frustrating it is, living in this country (island piggy), right now... I just...

Every time I try to build myself up, and make plans, the (federal, state AND local) government here makes things so much fucking worse. And that's driving me up the wall. To say the least...

Anyway, I can't fight that, so I guess I just have to... Try and learn to live with it.

Thanks all, for your input.

Sorry I didn't respond, prior to now. I'm not so great at that...

Anyway, most of this is good advice. Some... Is a bit unfair (you know who you are), but most of it is reasonable...

I think I'm increasingly realising that there's something... Wrong with me, mentally, and I will have to seriously do something about that. Some of you have suggested some good places to start. So thanks.

I'll try and get things to... A slightly better place, by next week.

I can't tell you how... Frustrating it is, living in this country (island piggy), right now... I just...

Every time I try to build myself up, and make plans, the (federal, state AND local) government here makes things so much fucking worse. And that's driving me up the wall. To say the least...

Anyway, I can't fight that, so I guess I just have to... Try and learn to live with it.

Fight, Spend time in nature, make something, find balance between being alone and interacting with people in real life.

Me, I do BJJ regularly, and I spend a lot of time outside building a big satellite array out in the forest.

There's lots of stuff you can build with just a bit of research online, most of my parts come from a scrapyard.

It's all about finding ways to get away from the screen and out into the world to do something you're proud of.

I'm horrifically depressed (anyone know what it's like to find the thought of suicide "calming"..? I've been at that point for nearly a fucking decade), terribly anxious, and probably have ADHD, amongst other things. I'm a fucking wreck. I have cripplingly low self-confidence and self-esteem (more confidence than esteem, though), so I have no trouble telling you that I am a useless piece of shit who probably deserves all the pain, humiliation and failure I have experienced in life.

Stop watching porn and jerking off and the rest will take care of itself. Your story is basically every coomer ever.

Check my username. I'm not one of you guys, but I'll give you my honest advice anyway.

First off is get in shape. If you're a young adult male, it takes minimal amounts of effort to be in reasonable shape, you don't have to be a gym rat. Just go jogging for 15 minutes every morning then do 20 situps/pushups. Try to do a little more every day. You'll be Saitama in no time.

Religion: I've come to believe that the major benefit from religion (aside from community) comes from the meditative aspect of it. Meditation really helps settle your thoughts and there's huge amounts of scientific evidence to support it. There are free apps and videos to get started.

Vaxxmaxxing: just do it. It's sucks what your government is doing, but it really isn't worth all the headache. I am vaxxed, my partner is vaxxed, my parents are, my sister's family are and none of us had any issue whatsoever. The vast majority of liberals are vaxxed so at least we are putting our money where our mouths are on this issue.

If you're tall, white, male, healthy and reasonably non-autistic, the liberal position is you are living on easy mode. You have tons of advantages in life that other people don't have due to immutable and unearned characteristics. I'm saying this not to berate you but to to say that you'll make it... once you get your act together. Suicide should not even be in your cards.