Are you kidding? It's the more into the system the more grim the world is. Outside is the Sun, stars in the night sky, meadows full of flowers, the whole shebang. I drive by the same herd of deer everyday, who seem to wait for me to go by before bounding over the fences on either side of the road. I see what seem to be the same 2 wild bunnies every time I come home at dusk. Most days, an armadillo. There are dragonflies, and Japanese beetles, and field mice. My family has a "lizard count" at dinner. Every day the sky is a different color, with different cloud configurations.

Inside the system is nothing but the grey flatness of twitter, facebook, instagram, tik-tok. It's training your face to accept everything with the same non-expression. Blow air out your nose at the funniest thing you've ever seen. Update your profile background like a man of the 50's would've watered his lawn. But for nobody. Just to keep your head above water. Just to keep the anxiety at a simmer rather than a boil.