At this point I'll just happily run towards the military/army to shoot me. I give up, I'm mentally too tired and sick of all this bullshit. I'm not fighting anymore. The only wish I want is whenever i go sleep, to not wake up anymore.
I don't want news on any platform. I never liked and always knew they only spread propaganda, fear, negativity and division for more clicks and traffic.
Shut off the TV and stay off the internet cesspools like Reddit and Twitter. Go out for some exercise like cycling and jogging. You will quickly realize that it's a beautiful day out there.
I don't want news or TV. I'm training on daily basis. I wrote a bit longer to one person already about my personal situation (as situations and struggles can differ from person to person). I deleted Reddit when NNN got banned and I'm not on Twitter because it became similar to FB). I enjoy my time outside, but supporting yourself financially is completely other thing for most people.
Go outside into the nature, into the sun while it's still summer (in the northern hemisphere at least), read a good book, stop watching TV, cook a good meal, work on yourself, and for the love of god, take a break from the news, even from here if it's having this effect on you.
Nothing drives these demons more mad than people like you or me living fulfilling lives despite their attempts to drag us down to their level. They stew in their hate, locked in their apartments, while we walk around, have fun, and build things. You're doing what they want, you have to resist.
I'm physically active and outside on daily basis. I'm not much on social media, maybe 30 minutes per day, mostly even less. I don't even watch news on any platform or even talk about it. I also hike with my friends. But you know, at some point, all this can't really help you with the realization that you can't travel again or attend music festivals (for music, I don't do drugs or drink much alcohol anyway), or even have a job. But I found out that whenever I'm on my lowest, something really good happens, I just got a job where they do not require any tests/vaccine mandates because they do not support it, I just hope i prove myself and work hard to receive a full-time job contract. Now add I can't sleep much for the past 13 years due to my brother being a "junkee" who doesn't want to go to medical treatment and his behavior affects me huuuge and negatively. I can't complete driving's licence and move on due to that. I couldn't finish college because of it. I'm trying to stay outside as much as possible, but still coming home to toxic environment and do not have a steady income to pack my bags and move away (not yet). I appreciate your message, I really do, but if this means I'll finally have peace inside myself, so be it. I do not want to live or battle when some people think natural immunity/strong immune system is a conspiracy theory, this is just over the line.
That sucks man, but the solution isn't to feel bad about yourself, that's what they want, don't give it to them. Life is a battle, you have to steel yourself and get used to it, being at peace is overrated and it just leads to complacency.
We all have our ups and downs, I'm not some kind of an Ubermensch either and this Covid insanity really got me down at points - I'm drinking way too much now, and I need to hit the gym and lose 20 pounds - but there's no way I'm giving up. There have been times in the last 2 years where I couldn't force myself to do the dishes or wash my bedsheets etc. for an embarassingly long time, but even when that happens, something as small as getting up and finally doing that mountain of dishes can feel like a huge accomplishment. As a certain Kermit the Frog impersonator says, "clean up your room" - it doesn't have to be literally that, but just do something positive even if it seems small and insignificant. Give yourself a small goal, I'm sure there's something you feel like you need to do that you've been putting off for ages - for example, I need to call Mazda and order a new FL wheel bearing, I just don't want to deal with them because they're assholes - and then do it. You'll feel good, even if it's something small.
Anyway, good luck with your new job, I hope it works out for you. Having a place to work that shares your values is great. (Mine really doesn't, it's all diversity this and inclusion that, but they leave me alone and our vax policy is don't ask, don't tell, so I'm happy.)
And sorry to hear about your family and living situation, that's gotta suck. Is it just the two of you living together, or do you live with your parents? If it's with parents, can't they do something about him?
Gotta focus on small wins. I don't know if you are in a free state or a tyranny state but I would move to the free and bask in the glory of whatever time we have left. Or better yet, move out into a small town in a remote area of a red state. No one will ever bother you. Pick up gardening, homesteading, candlemaking, I don't know but something that will give you purpose!
Luckily I'm not in USA, I'm from one of the smallest countries in the World (EU). I'd wanted to learn all those things, but first I need a job to make some income to get me a small area. Luckily I got the job where the absurd mandates aren't required because they do not support those as well. I've constantly had to battle different shit from people, fake friends, strangers, family members, so my mental game is probably the strongest part of me. But the fact that I can't even enjoy 3x per year travelling and lose myself for a bit, just got me. Really just broke me down in the last 20 months.
I hear you fren. For the most part I have remained strong and have been focusing on getting in better shape, making more money, being more efficient. But there are times when it does start to wear you down. This is exactly what their goal is. I am lucky that I am in a free red state, so it is easier. But hang in there, pray!
At this point I'll just happily run towards the military/army to shoot me. I give up, I'm mentally too tired and sick of all this bullshit. I'm not fighting anymore. The only wish I want is whenever i go sleep, to not wake up anymore.
I cannot respond to this comment without becoming a person of interest to the FBI. Sorry.
I've decided not to say it either.
He forgot to add "in Minecraft"
Understandable, have a great day!
You need rest!!!
Shut the fear porn propaganda out, turn it off and keep it off!
Hang in there!
I don't want news on any platform. I never liked and always knew they only spread propaganda, fear, negativity and division for more clicks and traffic.
Shut off the TV and stay off the internet cesspools like Reddit and Twitter. Go out for some exercise like cycling and jogging. You will quickly realize that it's a beautiful day out there.
I don't want news or TV. I'm training on daily basis. I wrote a bit longer to one person already about my personal situation (as situations and struggles can differ from person to person). I deleted Reddit when NNN got banned and I'm not on Twitter because it became similar to FB). I enjoy my time outside, but supporting yourself financially is completely other thing for most people.
Go outside into the nature, into the sun while it's still summer (in the northern hemisphere at least), read a good book, stop watching TV, cook a good meal, work on yourself, and for the love of god, take a break from the news, even from here if it's having this effect on you.
Nothing drives these demons more mad than people like you or me living fulfilling lives despite their attempts to drag us down to their level. They stew in their hate, locked in their apartments, while we walk around, have fun, and build things. You're doing what they want, you have to resist.
I'm physically active and outside on daily basis. I'm not much on social media, maybe 30 minutes per day, mostly even less. I don't even watch news on any platform or even talk about it. I also hike with my friends. But you know, at some point, all this can't really help you with the realization that you can't travel again or attend music festivals (for music, I don't do drugs or drink much alcohol anyway), or even have a job. But I found out that whenever I'm on my lowest, something really good happens, I just got a job where they do not require any tests/vaccine mandates because they do not support it, I just hope i prove myself and work hard to receive a full-time job contract. Now add I can't sleep much for the past 13 years due to my brother being a "junkee" who doesn't want to go to medical treatment and his behavior affects me huuuge and negatively. I can't complete driving's licence and move on due to that. I couldn't finish college because of it. I'm trying to stay outside as much as possible, but still coming home to toxic environment and do not have a steady income to pack my bags and move away (not yet). I appreciate your message, I really do, but if this means I'll finally have peace inside myself, so be it. I do not want to live or battle when some people think natural immunity/strong immune system is a conspiracy theory, this is just over the line.
That sucks man, but the solution isn't to feel bad about yourself, that's what they want, don't give it to them. Life is a battle, you have to steel yourself and get used to it, being at peace is overrated and it just leads to complacency.
We all have our ups and downs, I'm not some kind of an Ubermensch either and this Covid insanity really got me down at points - I'm drinking way too much now, and I need to hit the gym and lose 20 pounds - but there's no way I'm giving up. There have been times in the last 2 years where I couldn't force myself to do the dishes or wash my bedsheets etc. for an embarassingly long time, but even when that happens, something as small as getting up and finally doing that mountain of dishes can feel like a huge accomplishment. As a certain Kermit the Frog impersonator says, "clean up your room" - it doesn't have to be literally that, but just do something positive even if it seems small and insignificant. Give yourself a small goal, I'm sure there's something you feel like you need to do that you've been putting off for ages - for example, I need to call Mazda and order a new FL wheel bearing, I just don't want to deal with them because they're assholes - and then do it. You'll feel good, even if it's something small.
Anyway, good luck with your new job, I hope it works out for you. Having a place to work that shares your values is great. (Mine really doesn't, it's all diversity this and inclusion that, but they leave me alone and our vax policy is don't ask, don't tell, so I'm happy.)
And sorry to hear about your family and living situation, that's gotta suck. Is it just the two of you living together, or do you live with your parents? If it's with parents, can't they do something about him?
Gotta focus on small wins. I don't know if you are in a free state or a tyranny state but I would move to the free and bask in the glory of whatever time we have left. Or better yet, move out into a small town in a remote area of a red state. No one will ever bother you. Pick up gardening, homesteading, candlemaking, I don't know but something that will give you purpose!
Luckily I'm not in USA, I'm from one of the smallest countries in the World (EU). I'd wanted to learn all those things, but first I need a job to make some income to get me a small area. Luckily I got the job where the absurd mandates aren't required because they do not support those as well. I've constantly had to battle different shit from people, fake friends, strangers, family members, so my mental game is probably the strongest part of me. But the fact that I can't even enjoy 3x per year travelling and lose myself for a bit, just got me. Really just broke me down in the last 20 months.
I hear you fren. For the most part I have remained strong and have been focusing on getting in better shape, making more money, being more efficient. But there are times when it does start to wear you down. This is exactly what their goal is. I am lucky that I am in a free red state, so it is easier. But hang in there, pray!