That sucks man, but the solution isn't to feel bad about yourself, that's what they want, don't give it to them. Life is a battle, you have to steel yourself and get used to it, being at peace is overrated and it just leads to complacency.
We all have our ups and downs, I'm not some kind of an Ubermensch either and this Covid insanity really got me down at points - I'm drinking way too much now, and I need to hit the gym and lose 20 pounds - but there's no way I'm giving up. There have been times in the last 2 years where I couldn't force myself to do the dishes or wash my bedsheets etc. for an embarassingly long time, but even when that happens, something as small as getting up and finally doing that mountain of dishes can feel like a huge accomplishment. As a certain Kermit the Frog impersonator says, "clean up your room" - it doesn't have to be literally that, but just do something positive even if it seems small and insignificant. Give yourself a small goal, I'm sure there's something you feel like you need to do that you've been putting off for ages - for example, I need to call Mazda and order a new FL wheel bearing, I just don't want to deal with them because they're assholes - and then do it. You'll feel good, even if it's something small.
Anyway, good luck with your new job, I hope it works out for you. Having a place to work that shares your values is great. (Mine really doesn't, it's all diversity this and inclusion that, but they leave me alone and our vax policy is don't ask, don't tell, so I'm happy.)
And sorry to hear about your family and living situation, that's gotta suck. Is it just the two of you living together, or do you live with your parents? If it's with parents, can't they do something about him?
That sucks man, but the solution isn't to feel bad about yourself, that's what they want, don't give it to them. Life is a battle, you have to steel yourself and get used to it, being at peace is overrated and it just leads to complacency.
We all have our ups and downs, I'm not some kind of an Ubermensch either and this Covid insanity really got me down at points - I'm drinking way too much now, and I need to hit the gym and lose 20 pounds - but there's no way I'm giving up. There have been times in the last 2 years where I couldn't force myself to do the dishes or wash my bedsheets etc. for an embarassingly long time, but even when that happens, something as small as getting up and finally doing that mountain of dishes can feel like a huge accomplishment. As a certain Kermit the Frog impersonator says, "clean up your room" - it doesn't have to be literally that, but just do something positive even if it seems small and insignificant. Give yourself a small goal, I'm sure there's something you feel like you need to do that you've been putting off for ages - for example, I need to call Mazda and order a new FL wheel bearing, I just don't want to deal with them because they're assholes - and then do it. You'll feel good, even if it's something small.
Anyway, good luck with your new job, I hope it works out for you. Having a place to work that shares your values is great. (Mine really doesn't, it's all diversity this and inclusion that, but they leave me alone and our vax policy is don't ask, don't tell, so I'm happy.)
And sorry to hear about your family and living situation, that's gotta suck. Is it just the two of you living together, or do you live with your parents? If it's with parents, can't they do something about him?