Today especially has been pretty brutal. I see my dad for the first time in months and he dominates the conversation about his vitriolic hatred of Trump and anyone who supports him, calling them idiots. My girlfriend is sweet and nice but even knowing how I lean she can't help but say that she wants to go rip up Trump signs in front of people's houses and kill "transphobes". I've tried to curate my Twitter to be exclusively about my favorite game and content creators, but even after muting about two dozen political words and phrases it's just a bloody shouting match. It feels like the only time I'm not walking in a minefield is when I'm talking to a subsection of a group of friends who just like playing games. I went to cognitive behavioral therapy a few weeks ago, and it was really helpful, but even the positive thinking strategies that were effective just a few days ago aren't helping anymore. I don't feel suicidal, but I don't feel like living anymore. The two options of where I can live in the near future is chock full of people who have an open disdain/hatred for my thinking. Am I such a wretched human being for thinking that Trump's policies would be more economically sound and fair than Biden's? I apologize if this isn't the place to rant like this but how do I get past something like this?