I didn't see that part, but color me unsurprised. As I've said many times trapping is absolutely part of the fetish. It's why they can't stick to degenerates who are into that. And no, he's not disgusted with himself, because a) that requires morals that troons don't have and b) this whole thing is a sexual thrill to him. He just says that because because that's how real women who prostitute themselves often feel and he's trying to imitate him.