Maybe he did show weakness. People aren't at their strongest when they have cancer.

And he is allowed to be weak. I really doubt anyone would fault him for being so, cancer is gay.

But he spent a lot of time gleefully and aggressively demanding people poison themselves, despite having valid criticisms and questions he himself admitted were correct, and then is trying to elicit sympathy even now from that people hold that over his head. He is throwing his blood in the water hoping for victimhood, rather than offer humility to let those bygones go.

He still needs to be right, and that is more important to him than his death apparently.