I genuinely think that has, in the long run, led me down a seriously dark path…
Because almost everyone that graduated from there “made it”, but I never did. I never could. I tried, really hard, but I’m almost totally done.
I just, for whatever reason, can’t make it. And I fundamentally cannot live with that.
Other than that, yeah, kind of similar…
I guess I was already an outcast by then, though (say, from around eighth/ninth grade), so… ALL those groups hated me. All of them mocked me. None of them really seemed to want me around…
Thus, I guess my experience was just a bit different.
I should have left in 12th grade, and gone somewhere else. I knew shit was going wrong. I did try, but unsurprisingly my parents wouldn’t have any of that…
And now… I seem to be just about the only “failure” I know of from that finishing year (and indeed beyond).
I really can’t live with that anymore.
Sorry to bring things down so much…
I’m just… I’m honestly very done.
And school is… A huge part of how that came to be. Unfortunately…
Not sure I'd say it worked out that well, but I can't blame school, parent or anything like that. But on my shit health (nothing serious but highly inconvenient).
It's always worth remembering that most people have their own problems and they tend to hide them publicly.
I can just present myself as a CFO of a business I made and funded, a business that is improving and becoming a success.
But I also have my problems that I hide from most, if not all people.
When looking at others it's worth remembering that everyone has their own problems but will still project the illusion of a good life.
Mostly right time right place to be honest. Brother and a "friend" wanted to start a company but had no capital. Me, my father and a big name accountant each placed money to start it up (with my father lending money to them to form their share). I handled most a lot of the decision making of the back end of the thing (type of business, filing papers and deciding on how to split shares so that they had a fair share of decisions, etc) so I ended up as CFO.
The "friend" bailed, the accountant died, our 1st few big projects got bad timing killed by google but now things are looking up (my brother is even getting minimum wage now) that said it has been a costly 8 years but hopefully it will fully pay off. As long as I get to have a comfortable life I'm fine with not having the traditional happy family thing.
Sometimes life is about taking the shit it throws at you and making fertilizer to grow some lemons. I learned to enjoy the shit life handed me as challenge to be overcome in the game of life and thus managing to get a sense of peace and contentment with it even if I probably won't get the traditional happy life.
Also fancy private school. Also mostly rich kids…
I genuinely think that has, in the long run, led me down a seriously dark path…
Because almost everyone that graduated from there “made it”, but I never did. I never could. I tried, really hard, but I’m almost totally done.
I just, for whatever reason, can’t make it. And I fundamentally cannot live with that.
Other than that, yeah, kind of similar…
I guess I was already an outcast by then, though (say, from around eighth/ninth grade), so… ALL those groups hated me. All of them mocked me. None of them really seemed to want me around…
Thus, I guess my experience was just a bit different.
I should have left in 12th grade, and gone somewhere else. I knew shit was going wrong. I did try, but unsurprisingly my parents wouldn’t have any of that…
And now… I seem to be just about the only “failure” I know of from that finishing year (and indeed beyond).
I really can’t live with that anymore.
Sorry to bring things down so much…
I’m just… I’m honestly very done.
And school is… A huge part of how that came to be. Unfortunately…
In the end, not everyone makes it.
I’m happy to accept that.
I can’t live with it. But I can “admit and accept” it.
In the end we are what we make ourselves, and me (or the idiots in the OP) blaming high school isn’t going to help that.
I failed, and that just… Is. It’s no one’s “fault”, it just is.
Some of us have to fail, and fall, so that others can make it, I guess.
I’m glad you sound like your experience worked out ok, though.
Not sure I'd say it worked out that well, but I can't blame school, parent or anything like that. But on my shit health (nothing serious but highly inconvenient).
It's always worth remembering that most people have their own problems and they tend to hide them publicly.
I can just present myself as a CFO of a business I made and funded, a business that is improving and becoming a success.
But I also have my problems that I hide from most, if not all people.
When looking at others it's worth remembering that everyone has their own problems but will still project the illusion of a good life.
This is true.
I guess I just got tired of pretending to be “fine”, though, tbh…
Because yeah, I’m really not. 😑
Absolutely everything has gone wrong. Not denying my own responsibility for that, at all, but yeah, truly, it’s all gone to shit…
And I have, like, very little left to give…
Congrats on the CFO thing though - that’s awesome! 😄
That’s definitely a significant achievement in my book.
Mostly right time right place to be honest. Brother and a "friend" wanted to start a company but had no capital. Me, my father and a big name accountant each placed money to start it up (with my father lending money to them to form their share). I handled most a lot of the decision making of the back end of the thing (type of business, filing papers and deciding on how to split shares so that they had a fair share of decisions, etc) so I ended up as CFO.
The "friend" bailed, the accountant died, our 1st few big projects got bad timing killed by google but now things are looking up (my brother is even getting minimum wage now) that said it has been a costly 8 years but hopefully it will fully pay off. As long as I get to have a comfortable life I'm fine with not having the traditional happy family thing.
Sometimes life is about taking the shit it throws at you and making fertilizer to grow some lemons. I learned to enjoy the shit life handed me as challenge to be overcome in the game of life and thus managing to get a sense of peace and contentment with it even if I probably won't get the traditional happy life.