I do not disagree at all that women as a whole have gone south way, WAY more than men, looks-wise, personality wise, in most morals too. We agree on that. I also agree women "price themselves out" earning college degrees then being unwilling to "settle" for someone who earns less, and with the number of males earning good wages dropping, while the number of women earning busy work degrees that pay well, for now, increasing. Heck, plenty of them don't pay well, they just think they're entitled to a certain wage, over production of elites and all, and think any man they date needs to earn more than her phantom wage (not even factoring student loan debt). I even hate fat acceptance. Leftists already ran roughshod through the arts, now they come for fashion and the health industry and I have to watch these fat runway "models" ruining one of the last bastions of beauty I had left and uglifying magazines that used to have some wordclass photography. Nevermind how unhealthy it is and how they're trying to strong arm fitness communities and health professionals into being ashamed for wanting to, and asking people to lose weight. They're literally killing people. Be thankful men know better than to have a fat acceptance movement, by the large, they know if they work hard they can fix it and don't blame others for their self induced misery the way women do. I don't even doubt you're attractive, that's not it. The problem is you should not be to the point of tears because someone else is ugly. That's not moral, that doesn't make them a bad person, you're placing too much importance on looks there, it's wrong. That does not mean though, that you have to date fat people, shaved heads, whatever. I do think beauty standards are way out of whack and unattainable for most women (and yes, men), even so, you have every right to pursue who you want, and should definitely stay away from people with shaved heads and the like, overweight people too. People who eschew societal standards, beauty or otherwise, who lack a sort of basic conformity, tend to have negative genetic personality traits. When redpill types talk about aposematism they aren't wrong. Overweight people tend to be depressed too, not fun to be around, contagious also. Plenty of women do what you did, "date down" in looks, and find what you find, some miserable person who's quite frankly, usually abusive as heck too. It's not good to think dating them is some kind of charity and probably factors in to why the more attractive person was treated that way, but usually the abuse went beyond that. People who have a "fixable ugliness" tend to have something else wrong with them that goes beyond looks, so be careful. The problem is valuing the wrong things (casual sex, looks), over the right things (character, which includes being healthy, and marriage). I know it's very, very hard out there for men, while only quite hard out there for women (I see a lot of effeminate males, see a lot of Liberal males, but plenty of decent men walking round all the time still). I just don't think dismissing legitimate claims out of frustration due to how much harder it is, is factually/morally correct. Especially when both genders want the same thing. I hope you find what you are looking for, and that thing is what is good.