It sounds like you dont like your job. How much effort have you put into a career change? A side hustle?
Stop making yourself miserable. You identified the source of your grief so make a radical change in your life and cut out the job and commute that makes you so miserable.
I lost my career job for not wearing a mask and next thing i knew i was mowing lawns and shit. LOL but i wasn't wearing a mask. You adapt. You roll with the punches.
Tbf I am leaving t eaching to go into tutoring. But even in tutoring, people ask for invoice + business names + registration + whats my sales taxes registration blah blah blah. I have to lie/bullshit them. Matter of time until I run into some snitch/gov agent and get fucked.
Same for you by the way; how long until you get reported by one of the guy who pays you. "Your honor, I paid him $500 for mowing my lawn."
A lot of them want receipts for tax deductions of their own too.
Anyway I lost my first job because I refused to do a covid test. That was a while ago.
It sounds like you dont like your job. How much effort have you put into a career change? A side hustle?
Stop making yourself miserable. You identified the source of your grief so make a radical change in your life and cut out the job and commute that makes you so miserable.
I lost my career job for not wearing a mask and next thing i knew i was mowing lawns and shit. LOL but i wasn't wearing a mask. You adapt. You roll with the punches.
Tbf I am leaving t eaching to go into tutoring. But even in tutoring, people ask for invoice + business names + registration + whats my sales taxes registration blah blah blah. I have to lie/bullshit them. Matter of time until I run into some snitch/gov agent and get fucked.
Same for you by the way; how long until you get reported by one of the guy who pays you. "Your honor, I paid him $500 for mowing my lawn."
A lot of them want receipts for tax deductions of their own too.
Anyway I lost my first job because I refused to do a covid test. That was a while ago.
Source of my grief is child abuse lol