people hate me because I've never been given the success I need to be a likable person and everyone I beg for help just tells me to do a bunch of bullshit that leads nowhere, wastes my time and leaves me with nothing to think about except how shitty, worthless and empty my life is and how there seems to be no escape from my suffering even when I'm doing everything right.

It's honestly like all these people telling me to go out are just trying to push me to kill myself, because they're taking me away from somewhere I can distract myself, be stimulated and socialize and telling me to go sit around where I can do nothing but watch other people have the sorts of lives I would kill for.