I dont think I could kill anyone, but if my life or the life of my loved ones were on the line, it might be a different story. One of the reasons I didnt want to join the army when I was 18, I dont think I could be on the front lines if im being honest with myself. Last thing I would want to do is be in it and freeze and get someone else killed.

I have dreams were I "accidentally" kill people, and its extremely disturbing lmao. Stupid shit too like once in a dream I flipped my sibling over my head and ripped his arm off.

I prolly am retarded.

Bringing this stuff up out of nowhere is breaking the "don't be psycho" rule 2. Get a hold of yourself.