I think Tucker is going through the same thing a lot of us are going through. My best attempt at describing is as follows:
we've all been raised and indoctrinated into a specific belief system. The official narrative of history, science, genetics, morality, economics, culture... And that narrative has been catastrophically challenged.
We've learned things we cannot unlearn but we've also wandered so far into the deep end that were the lone swimmer.
We've been self alienated, because we dared to venture into the dark domain of truth instead of staying in the cozy warm shallow lies. And that breeds doubt. LOTS of doubt. Tucker knows what he's saying here is nonsensical. But it's one of the few remaining tethers he has to the cozy narrative state of mind. So he's resisting swimming any farther.
Like all of us, once he's cut the last of those safety lines he doesn't have a sure way back to "normalcy", and that's frightening. Occasionally he'll tug on the line just to make sure it's there. That's not to say he hasn't made huge progress. But even the bravest of us sometimes have moments of hesitation...
Have I alienated myself to friends and family? Is it worth it? Am I the bad guy? Is the official narrative right? Did I go crazy or am I being gaslit? And you ruminate over it. Might even relapse into the old ways because the warm lies feel better than the cold truth.
I think Tucker is going through the same thing a lot of us are going through. My best attempt at describing is as follows:
we've all been raised and indoctrinated into a specific belief system. The official narrative of history, science, genetics, morality, economics, culture... And that narrative has been catastrophically challenged.
We've learned things we cannot unlearn but we've also wandered so far into the deep end that were the lone swimmer.
We've been self alienated, because we dared to venture into the dark domain of truth instead of staying in the cozy warm shallow lies. And that breeds doubt. LOTS of doubt. Tucker knows what he's saying here is nonsensical. But it's one of the few remaining tethers he has to the cozy narrative state of mind. So he's resisting swimming any farther.
Like all of us, once he's cut the last of those safety lines he doesn't have a sure way back to "normalcy", and that's frightening. Occasionally he'll tug on the line just to make sure it's there. That's not to say he hasn't made huge progress. But even the bravest of us sometimes have moments of hesitation...
Have I alienated myself to friends and family? Is it worth it? Am I the bad guy? Is the official narrative right? Did I go crazy or am I being gaslit? And you ruminate over it. Might even relapse into the old ways because the warm lies feel better than the cold truth.