You're wasting time on your computer all day. Not finding suggestions, you're gaming for hours on end instead of putting in some actual fucking effort.

People get fed up with you because you're an aggressive asshole. Learn to stop acting like an aggressive asshole. They refuse to help you because you're an aggressive asshole.

I'd rather die.

Well then you'd better start doing something different then, because your current pattern of waste time on the computer, yell at your family, and be a massive piece of shit online isn't helping.

You know the definition of insanity, right? You've been doing the same exact fucking thing for the past 8 years and expecting a different result.