If you were actually a woman in a man's body (you're not), do you know what you would do in such a situation? You'd suck it up and play the part of "dad" regardless of if that felt "right" to you, because that's what would be in the best interest of your children. You'd make that sacrifice because that's what decent parents, including mothers, do.

But you're not their mother and you're not even acting like their father. Selfish piece of garbage.