Not really a post with links, more of a rant, but... I'm currently trying to get "back into" the academic world, because it seems that life is dragging me that way again. But then I look around and see the massive gender gap, and it puts me off again.

I know multiple women who've got engineering scholarships, and a significant number who are younger than me who are currently doing their PhDs. I know three Rhodes scholars, two of whom are women. Almost every woman from my finishing year has at least a Masters, which is crazy to me. Combined with scholarships, exchanges and "topping the class", I've been surrounded by female high achievers for more than a decade.

And then there's a girl I know who didn't even finish school, yet who somehow gets to work in Antarctica regularly, and represent the Air Force at airshows, despite being a civilian, and not even a pilot. Because she's "model pretty" (literally a fitness model), and "charismatic", and "works hard" (she's basically a hustler. Though I still have absolutely no idea how she got to where she is).

Meanwhile, as for the guys I know..? I can only think of two who have even started their PhD. Several I know didn't even get a degree (like me, unfortunately), or, in a couple of cases, didn't even finish school. At least three committed suicide. I've seen multiple men I know have breakdowns in the "academic world" (as did I), and drop out. Yet I barely ever saw that happen to the women I knew, and if it did, they always bounced back. Sometimes even scoring cushy government jobs in completely unrelated fields (like, actresses becoming heads of government departments, for fuck's sake), afterwards.

And yet you can't even get a relationship here (much like the US), if you don't have the six figures, stable job and decent "bachelor pad", even if you are in reasonable shape and over six foot. Because there's always some other dude who has all or most of that who can take your place...

This is just so... Blatant, that it is really bringing me down. Combined with woke bureaucracy (mandatory "consent training" for one. Enforced smartphone use for another), and the false allegations I detailed last year, I'm just so... Fucking over it.

No wonder men are dropping out of "mainstream society" at the rate that they/we are. The deck is completely stacked against us, at this point.

/endrant