Yeah, you’re definitely not alone there... if you’re looking for something a little more digestible, the 4 movie “Rebuild of Evangelion” series is a bit less abstract and slightly more willing to “come out and say” its message (however the message of Rebuild is not quite the same as the show or as End of Evangelion, the movie capstone of the show).

It’s possible that you had already come to learn the lessons present, and thus the media has nothing to offer you, but if you were just too young or distracted and think you missed things, I recommend giving it another shot, as I feel these pieces of art are a wellspring of insight on the human condition