Christ is risen. Alleluia! Alleluia!
Fellow Christians, remember that Our Lord Jesus Christ did not change the world by commanding a great army or leading an uprising. Indeed, the Jews killed Our Lord for that very reason, our humble loving Lord was not a messiah that was to their liking. Instead, He showed His love for all of us, suffering a sorrowful passion, and accepting the will of His Father to die for our sins. Our Lord and God was the example of the perfect man, showing us that to build the Kingdom of God, what we must do is follow His example, spread His teaching and obey our God.
Let us pray for His mercy for our own sins and those of the whole world. Let us all pray for His grace as we continue His mission to spread His truth to our fellow brothers and sisters. Let us pray for those who dwell in dark and sin, that they may have their eyes opened to see the truth.
May Christ the King be our light to shine through the darkness.
I, too, am a man who continues his search for Christ, and my reason to have true faith in God. I was raised Lutheran and went to a small but very nice church, and it's there that I fell in love with the organ; (1)(2)(3)(4).
I had a crisis of faith in my teenage years due to horrific acne and all of my friends leaving me because of it, likely for fear of 'catching it.' I learned solitude and independence at a very young age. Consequently, I lost a lot of my love for life, and despite the story of Job being right there, I still stopped caring and stopped believing.
I've spent all my years since waiting for my call back, but I have yet to hear it. I still find myself disgusted by the degeneracy of the rest of the world, and count none of them as my friends. In spite of everything I have maintained my sense of right and wrong, of fair and unfair, and most important of all, of righteousness and evil.
May His kingdom come, may He reign eternal, and may His voice find me in my long dark night at last.
My turning away from the Church was due to a perception that it seemed to resist social changes at first then begrudgingly go along with them, so why not just go along with them in the first place?
I also never entirely let go of that sense of right and wrong I was raised with, and there were many times where I felt uncomfortable when I was out in the world as a result. Never felt "disgust" until a few years ago.
Consider the possibility that your "disgust" with the degeneracy you see is your "call back". I know for me when I first saw one of my closest friends dressed up and acting like a woman, my first thought was "I should start going to church".
I'm still wrestling with God too, but I don't expect I'll ever get a more clear signal than that.
I think so many people feel disgust at sin or guilt from sinning and don't realize that it can be a message from God. He's guiding you peacefully, I find your statement correct it could be God speaking to them.