This might apply less if your brain is less broken than mine. Like, I’ve only just realized that having had three different Facebook accounts in the last 11 or so years (starting over again each time) is considered highly unusual, to most people… As is not having a “professional” career. As is being a “loner”/not really having a friend group. As is being perpetually single in your twenties. As is not having a degree. So…
I’m well aware that I’m far from “the norm”.
But holy fuck. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alienated from “normal society”, or so… Fucking isolated. Even compared to during lockdowns… Everyone I know is getting married, having kids, expressing the same damn opinions, and just generally… Moving on a path that I’m not sure I can follow…
I’ve tried. I’ve really, really tried, but it’s just like… When everyone around you says and thinks the same (apparently), and follows the same damn path, and then doesn’t include you in it (most hurtful thing: fucking none of them inviting me to their weddings. Not even my “best friend” growing up), it’s easy to feel like some sort of crazy freak…
Things seem to be getting more and more like this, too. Like, with how far away, collectively, society gets from its “roots”, or any sort of… Moral grounding, it’s hard not to feel like the crazy one…
I dunno. I’m spiralling. Today has been another reminder that I’m just… Probably not able to keep going, unfortunately.
But it’s hard not to already feel like I’m pushing against a giant wave of wacky bullshit that everyone else is more than happy to go along with, even if some of us drown in it along the way. 😔
If only it were that straightforward these days, ordinarily it would be, no offence, but you come across to me as somebody who likely has their own in-group already and have known them for years perhaps. Whenever somebody earnestly tries to do what they preach in today's society they realise how fucking retarded everything is and it red pills them hard on what younger people go through, especially men.
For the record I haven't given up or anything, I went to comedy unleashed to watch Count Dankula's roast last year and really enjoyed it. Even chatted with some people generally and it was fun because you knew they weren't going to be woke tards, leftists or normies which I'm usually surrounded by RL.
The problem is events like that are few and far between and by god do the left want to shut them down for this exact reason. We need more explicitly non-woke events to gather around RL especially in the North in the UK because most shit is in London and you can't really afford to go there always or it just takes too much time.
This is the reality, you're treading on eggshells wherever you go depending on what country you're in. You simply can't show up at a club or event and expect to be able to fit in even if it's similar hobbies because of the troon commissars among other things that will inevitably be lurking looking to cause drama and kick you out.
I'm not joking about that last bit as well by the way, from my own experience doing things like researching night clubs and places like that to see if there's anywhere worth hanging out. Holy fucking shit it's a woke fest and not only that depending on the type of place it is if it's somewhere for single to meet up they openly discriminate against single guys and charge you £40+ odd on average just to get in because 'single men bad, will rape women' meanwhile in the height of irony trannies get massive discount and can go in by themselves no problem which is hilarious.
Why on earth would I try to fit in with people like that who have decided they hate me before they've even met me? Don't get me started on universities which I avoided like the plague for a reason.
I had an in group but lost it due to attrition like children, jobs out of other states, etc. After the locks downs, I really felt lonelier than ever and said “Fuck it, I’m talking to people.” Just having to confidence to blindly daily “Hi” to the dentist and talk about something other than work makes other people break out of that shell, too. Literally had it happen last week that the talk went from basic eye surgery to talking about guns stores and Target being faggy.
Your right that being in a different country will get vastly different ideas but if people hate you already, what do you have to lose? Fuck what people think about you: You worry about the current conversation and you’ll be pleasantly surprised when people come out of the woodwork and start talking to you with similar interests.
That's the thing, I've always thought this, but I'm probably going to have to go pretty far afield to find people worth hanging out with so securing social mobility is going to be my goal at the moment. I've thought heavily about looking up different countries and finding places that aren't generally woke which do exist.
I live in the UK and in one of the most left wing areas of the country so finding somebody who is not like that to even talk to is fucking hard. It's that classic problem as well where even the conservatives here in the UK really are pretty left wing by American standards and often get into competitions with the left even worse than the American right wingers do to prove how much more left wing they are to virtue signal tolerance.
I'll say hi and stuff, but even when it comes to guns and LGBT propaganda ( Because that's what it is ) oh you'd better be fucking careful who you bring that around because even when they're not outright left wing it's normiesville so you can predict their responses before they even say it usually and it will be what pops up on the first page of google because that's their level of thinking on any given topic.
What's the Northeast (Newcastle, Sunderland, etc) like, these days?
Poor, I know, but as a classic "working class" area that has had to gentrify and diversify, I assume that makes for... An interesting collection of people.
Weirdly, I met someone at a gig, recently (the muso who was performing), on literally the other side of the world, who is living and working there at the moment, because he reckoned it was a good city for that kind of thing...
Obviously much, much cheaper than London, too. I'm sure that's partly why he moved there, lol.
To be fair I don't know that much about North East but the most common thread with the left in the UK even the white working class is to constantly blame the right for everything. Going by current voting patterns that attitude has not changed and I'm pretty fed up with it. I do know Liverpool's a shithole and like most shitholes it's filled with people who frequently make it so.
Newcastle might even be worth a visit for me, perhaps it is a bit different, I've not been impressed though by the UK and I've been over a few places. Manchester, Leeds, London, the cities are just not places you want to be. Much like American cities now the cities in general are a breeding ground for insufferable left wing hipsters that are living embodiments of the soy wojack stereotype. Yes, I'm not exaggerating, it is that bad.