It doesn't sound like she regrets the whole thing, only whines that she can't have everything from both worlds without people judging her. Basic women "I shouldn't have to face consequences" behavior.

But then again, her constantly talking about how much money she is making and how many lines she won't cross reeks of cope on many levels. I don't doubt much of this is a double delusion to try and reclaim some legit respect (what little she had before) to make her not spiral into suicide.