I have been accused of being some super secret spy person, being in touch with everyone, meanwhile I'm just sitting here knowing literally nothing.

Could be worse, you could have been in the "summit" wherein you were supposed to be in a super secret position and in touch with everyone, while subtly having the ear of the mod team. Wherein for all my trouble (aka arguing with Antonio a lot, and then having the same canned arguments with the mods) I got accused of being in cahoots with the mods and being an Antonio dickrider.

Its really funny because he and I have barely ever agreed on anything, even our criticisms of those mods were wildly different.

I left halfkia because of Pink

For all my criticism of Pink, at least after some point she learned to just shutup and not talk. Her moderation was horrific, but by the end she mostly stopped talking. Likely because she knew even saying a word would cause trouble. I left because of everyone's favorite boy Shad. When you couldn't have a single thread without him having a pissant slap fight with someone. Still to this day one of the most insufferable people I've ever met.

Like you can't be not a leftist and enjoy... vidya and fun stuff and such!

Well, let's not forget that by their own admission Pinkie was the most right wing mod. If that's the standard for "left vs right" you have, then of course their very perception of reality would be off.