I'm feeling pretty... Blackpilled, at the moment. Maybe even worse than that. Things are bad. Things keep getting worse. Not just politically, but... As a human being. All the failed relationships, all the lost friendships, all the... Shit, that has happened in my life, is sort of getting to me pretty bad.
But more than that, it feels like we're losing. Like things... Are spiralling out of control (in Aus, but also outside it). I literally can't look at ANY popular media, or any sort of news, without being utterly bombarded by it.
So... If you've got a good "whitepill", or just... Something that counteracts all this... Existential angst, and feelings of sheer... Doom, I would appreciate hearing it, I guess. Thanks. While it lasts, and while I last.
Fuck it, get a fresh start somewhere, get away from some of that baggage. The biggest downside to moving far away is not seeing old friends and family, and that kinda sounds like that's not a problem for you right now.
The UK's fucked in many of it's own ways, but compared to Aus they're better right now. At least when the people got mad at covid overreach and protested in London they quietly backed down on a lot of covid stuff instead of sending in the stasi, now there's not many covid restrictions left. If you have any grandparents who were British citizens you might be able to apply for relatively easy 'right of abode' aka live and work freely like a citizen, so you could take temporary refuge there maybe. Economically that might still be rough though.
Failing that you can lean into that disinterest in all the cunts around you and make some money off of it. Look into a job on a boat or an oil rig or something, the kind of jobs that pay extra because of how isolated you are. If you have no relevant experience it might still have to be a shitty job at first, but at least no-one will bother you in the middle of the ocean.
White pill shit, iunno, it's not blue skies and rainbows ahead, but the sky's not fucking falling either. The actual pill is a little black, a little white, very red and coated in piss and vinegar to get you used to giving no fucks about the bullshit that will pass quickly.
It's a massive cliche, but if you haven't already maybe give some of Jordan Peterson's general life stuff a try, he seems to be very helpful to people struggling with existential angst and demotivation.
I really wish we could leave, but... Exit ban, remember..?
Still don't know when we will be able to. Kind of just... Waiting it out. And it'll probably (well, not probably, certainly) require me to get doubly vaccinated, which I'm obviously not, so... I don't know. That's a bridge I'll have to cross, later on, I suppose...
I wish it was as easy as "Save up, then get the fuck out", but sadly... Australia's not like that, right now. Not anymore.
Think East Germany. Or, eh, occupied Hungary. Or North Korea.
And yes, the irony of Australia taking refugees from those places, in the past, is not lost on me, or anyone else with a working brain and "free will", trust me... :-(
Yeah, I didn't look into it very much. There's an exemption for if you intend to stay away for more than 3 months, with a "compelling" reason. Unfortunately 'let me out before I do something we all regret' whilst compelling, probably isn't a smart thing to say. And yeah no advice on how to work around the vaccine stuff either, that's a whole mess of reading that I have no need to deal with so fuck that.
That the 3-month exemption exists and the exit ban shit just doesn't look long-term sustainable make me think they don't intend to keep it up like this for more than a few more months. Especially with everything blowing up over there, they're cracking the whip right now but they're gonna want to release some pressure real soon. There'll still be a bunch of bullshit rules going forward but they'll start opening up more loopholes with time. There's a lot of prep to be done if you intend to gtfo, so in the meantime you can make some plans on where to go, work on getting visa documents in order, and planning what you can do when you get there I guess. As well as maybe trying to orchestrate some 'compelling reason' you have to be elsewhere so you can meet the current exceptions too, in case they take too long to ease up on that shit.
I do think I should perhaps look into the sailing/boat crew stuff, though, yeah...
I did try that last year, but most of the ones I found online don't take "people we haven't had on our boat before" - i.e. I would have to do a paying voyage with them, first, before they will take me on as crew, which I can't afford rn... :-/
It sucks, because I have extended family, and family friends, with yachts. Unfortunately the family fucking hates me, and the family friends... I've sort of lost touch with, and my psycho parents would do their best to interfere, anyway...
So I dunno. It's a tough, tough time. Genuinely waiting with baited breath for those international borders to reopen. If they ever do... :-/
Does it sound like I'm living in a dictatorship? Because it kind of feels that way (increasingly so), honestly...
I suppose if they throw me in prison for talking about this stuff, and calling for action... At least I won't have as much of an opportunity to read/hear about how fucked the world is, while I'm fucking locked up, lol... If you catch my drift.
I joke, but... It is at the back of my mind. Which it shouldn't need to be, if this country were indeed still a "free and liberal democracy" snort...