I'm feeling pretty... Blackpilled, at the moment. Maybe even worse than that. Things are bad. Things keep getting worse. Not just politically, but... As a human being. All the failed relationships, all the lost friendships, all the... Shit, that has happened in my life, is sort of getting to me pretty bad.
But more than that, it feels like we're losing. Like things... Are spiralling out of control (in Aus, but also outside it). I literally can't look at ANY popular media, or any sort of news, without being utterly bombarded by it.
So... If you've got a good "whitepill", or just... Something that counteracts all this... Existential angst, and feelings of sheer... Doom, I would appreciate hearing it, I guess. Thanks. While it lasts, and while I last.
I do think I should perhaps look into the sailing/boat crew stuff, though, yeah...
I did try that last year, but most of the ones I found online don't take "people we haven't had on our boat before" - i.e. I would have to do a paying voyage with them, first, before they will take me on as crew, which I can't afford rn... :-/
It sucks, because I have extended family, and family friends, with yachts. Unfortunately the family fucking hates me, and the family friends... I've sort of lost touch with, and my psycho parents would do their best to interfere, anyway...
So I dunno. It's a tough, tough time. Genuinely waiting with baited breath for those international borders to reopen. If they ever do... :-/
Does it sound like I'm living in a dictatorship? Because it kind of feels that way (increasingly so), honestly...
I suppose if they throw me in prison for talking about this stuff, and calling for action... At least I won't have as much of an opportunity to read/hear about how fucked the world is, while I'm fucking locked up, lol... If you catch my drift.
I joke, but... It is at the back of my mind. Which it shouldn't need to be, if this country were indeed still a "free and liberal democracy" snort...