Some of what you experienced, I have too. Strange I was just thinking about them yesterday.
RE bad childhood. Me too. I've come to realize that I was not the only one, and even though there are many, many more children experiencing much worse than you or I as we are still living, they are not.
Then we grow up and some things are just too hard to handle. I think that's where the hatred comes in. This is something you have to control. I have family members who truly hate everyone and everything. They fight, yell, seek revenge but you know what, they end up hurting themselves more. The hatred overtakes any logic and they screw themselves. But they hate so much they are not even aware what they are doing to themselves. I distance myself from anyone who is so hateful. I imagine myself a fly on the wall watching those hateful people sink further and further. You and I cannot be taken over by hatred.
All that is happening in Australia is or will happen everywhere. That is all evil showing us his ugly head. We can and should fight back to a degree but can't take over for the whole world. I would suggest you switch to survival mode. That gives you a goal, keeps you busy, and gives you hope.
The 1 thing you didnt mention is your faith. This is a time when we really need God. Find a peaceful space and an hour every day to either read the bible, pray, take up a patron saint. Catholics find tremendous peace in adoration.
IN SUMMARY:
Forgive and forget the past. Its over and done with, nothing you can do about it. Let it go.
Work on yourself. Your attitude. Change all your vices into virtues. Try something for charity.
Dont get so pissed or frustrated over the evils in governments. There is only so much you can do. Its just too big for 1 person. Try to prepare for the changes in the world but be sure you connect with God and ask His help and guidance. You are not alone.
Some of what you experienced, I have too. Strange I was just thinking about them yesterday.
RE bad childhood. Me too. I've come to realize that I was not the only one, and even though there are many, many more children experiencing much worse than you or I as we are still living, they are not.
Then we grow up and some things are just too hard to handle. I think that's where the hatred comes in. This is something you have to control. I have family members who truly hate everyone and everything. They fight, yell, seek revenge but you know what, they end up hurting themselves more. The hatred overtakes any logic and they screw themselves. But they hate so much they are not even aware what they are doing to themselves. I distance myself from anyone who is so hateful. I imagine myself a fly on the wall watching those hateful people sink further and further. You and I cannot be taken over by hatred.
All that is happening in Australia is or will happen everywhere. That is all evil showing us his ugly head. We can and should fight back to a degree but can't take over for the whole world. I would suggest you switch to survival mode. That gives you a goal, keeps you busy, and gives you hope.
The 1 thing you didnt mention is your faith. This is a time when we really need God. Find a peaceful space and an hour every day to either read the bible, pray, take up a patron saint. Catholics find tremendous peace in adoration.
IN SUMMARY: Forgive and forget the past. Its over and done with, nothing you can do about it. Let it go.
Work on yourself. Your attitude. Change all your vices into virtues. Try something for charity.
Dont get so pissed or frustrated over the evils in governments. There is only so much you can do. Its just too big for 1 person. Try to prepare for the changes in the world but be sure you connect with God and ask His help and guidance. You are not alone.