I'm 32 btw, and I don't consider myself "old" like millennials often exaggerate....32 is still young, but time creeps along for all people and there is one thing that when I see it, it makes me have sort of an odd dread feeling.
People will post memes of like "this show is now X amount of years old...feel old yet?"
And that stuff never does. But the one thing that makes me go "that can't be right....that must be a glitch...it can't be that old" is those rare times I come across a Youtube video that was uploaded near the beginning, like a video from 2007 or something and the video will say "uploaded 15 years ago, or 16 years ago"
That one hits me in the gut every time. I remember in middle school Youtube being a new thing and it doesn't feel like the type of thing that is half my lifetime ago..It feels such a modern, part of this crap society that when I stumble across videos that were 16 years ago....I don't know...it gives me a similar feeling like when you watch a black mirror episode...there's something dystopian feeling about it.
What your experiencing is the demoralisation that comes with a never ending cultural stream. The speed of events and propaganda has increased so much that your losing the ability to process it and your sense of time. Normally you use significant events as markers of time. But there's been so many "significant" events that are just moved on it's becoming a blur. Literally. Your losing large chunks of your life.
I don't know if it's intentional, but think of any scene in a tv show or movie where they capture and brainwash someone. They get the clockwork orange scene of having your eyes forced to watch and a dizzying array of images and pictures flashed faster than the victim can process.
That's what modern life is. I believe it's partially intentional because if you lose your sense of time you lose your sense of importance and grounding, and can't form attachments to normality. Thus accept anything that's the "new normal"