That is some immense projection and gaslighting there. You just keep circling back to that, your conditioning has you acting more like an automaton than complete person.

The perhaps the reason you seem to think that everyone resorts to insults after they start talking to you, is that you're so deep in denial of how debased your behavior is that accurately labeling your acts feels insulting. It would be insulting if it weren't true, but it is true and that only makes it shameful. Stop being a disappointment to everyone, doubling down on doing more harm rather than admit fault is not a virtue.