This might apply less if your brain is less broken than mine. Like, I’ve only just realized that having had three different Facebook accounts in the last 11 or so years (starting over again each time) is considered highly unusual, to most people… As is not having a “professional” career. As is being a “loner”/not really having a friend group. As is being perpetually single in your twenties. As is not having a degree. So…
I’m well aware that I’m far from “the norm”.
But holy fuck. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alienated from “normal society”, or so… Fucking isolated. Even compared to during lockdowns… Everyone I know is getting married, having kids, expressing the same damn opinions, and just generally… Moving on a path that I’m not sure I can follow…
I’ve tried. I’ve really, really tried, but it’s just like… When everyone around you says and thinks the same (apparently), and follows the same damn path, and then doesn’t include you in it (most hurtful thing: fucking none of them inviting me to their weddings. Not even my “best friend” growing up), it’s easy to feel like some sort of crazy freak…
Things seem to be getting more and more like this, too. Like, with how far away, collectively, society gets from its “roots”, or any sort of… Moral grounding, it’s hard not to feel like the crazy one…
I dunno. I’m spiralling. Today has been another reminder that I’m just… Probably not able to keep going, unfortunately.
But it’s hard not to already feel like I’m pushing against a giant wave of wacky bullshit that everyone else is more than happy to go along with, even if some of us drown in it along the way. 😔
Fundamentally, I'm isolated from mainstream political opinions, but that's why I never tend to actually bring them up.
I tend to talk to Leftists about specific topics, one at a time, rather than challenging their over-arching narrative, and it does more subversive damage to their indoctrination and builds trust with me.
But it's not about really being isolated from society. Frankly, I don't care a lot about society because society gives less than zero shits if I burn alive in front of them. It's much more important to craft friendships and care what your friends, family, and co-workers think of you, than "society" in abstract.
"Bonds of sentiment" mean everything. Society does not.
Since our civilization is utterly destroyed, society has gone with it, but both are built from the building blocks of "bonds of sentiment", and so that's where you have to start.
Individuate. Don't care about society, don't care about people, care about persons. Don't care about women, care about Sarah. Don't care about employers, care about Mr. Adams. Don't care about friends, care about James.
If everyone does it, we'll get our civilization back.