To the people confused by this, let me explain from the perspective of a suicidal person…

I don’t know whether I view myself as “smart” or in any way “gifted”, but I’m clearly not a fucking idiot.

I hate my life. I’ve hated my life for a long time, and I have plenty of reason to (much of which is, unfortunately, now outside my control).

Thus, the suggestion is: “Ok, well, look around you. Look at the good things in the world.”

So I look around me, and I see how fucked things are. From a very local, micro level (suburb, even street), right up to city, state, nation and beyond…

That’s not to say that there isn’t plenty of good, but when I look at the world, and what is happening in wider “society”..?

Well, it’s no wonder whatsoever to me that someone who is already that depressed, or perhaps just predisposed to it, might, or indeed would, eventually make the decision to “check out”…

I’m nearly 100% confident I will, eventually, too. It’s really just a question of when and how.

Sorry, but that’s just reality. It is what it is.

Hard to understand? Sure, but I’m not asking for that. I’m just giving my perspective, as a fellow “not really having the will to go on”-type person…