Some people’s lives just don’t work out. And I’m one of those people. I don’t blame any specific person for this. And I’m done blaming myself. Nor am I “stupid”, in most senses of the word. I just… Things have happened, and gone wrong.
So that’s where I’m at. I’ll either graduate in three years (just under), or I’ll be dead. I honestly don’t think there’s any if’s, or but’s, or caveats about that. This is it, now.
So… I’ll still absolutely throw myself at this, and maybe along the way things will change, but… I honestly don’t see myself still being around in three years’ time. Not now…
I’m not expecting anyone to understand that. I’m just stating the truth. Because I can here, because it’s pretty much anonymous…
Some people make it. Some people don’t. I haven’t, and right now, well, I don’t see that realistically changin’.
But all I can do is try to focus forward, and cut out the bad stuff.
There’s a quote from Doctor Who (the Van Gogh episode), of all things, about life being a pile of good stuff and bad stuff. The good stuff doesn’t always outweigh the bad stuff, but the bad stuff doesn’t make the good any less worthwhile.
So… That’s kind of where I’m at. But I’ve been there for a long while.
Hopefully, if nothing else, I can make some “good” for myself, because that seems to be the only way that any comes into my life, really. It shouldn’t be quite this hard, but even to stop things tipping into “even worse” territory, I really have to fight hard all the time…
Eh, anyway, cheers again, and all the best to you! I genuinely appreciate it!
Some people’s lives just don’t work out. And I’m one of those people. I don’t blame any specific person for this. And I’m done blaming myself. Nor am I “stupid”, in most senses of the word. I just… Things have happened, and gone wrong.
So that’s where I’m at. I’ll either graduate in three years (just under), or I’ll be dead. I honestly don’t think there’s any if’s, or but’s, or caveats about that. This is it, now.
So… I’ll still absolutely throw myself at this, and maybe along the way things will change, but… I honestly don’t see myself still being around in three years’ time. Not now…
I’m not expecting anyone to understand that. I’m just stating the truth. Because I can here, because it’s pretty much anonymous…
Some people make it. Some people don’t. I haven’t, and right now, well, I don’t see that realistically changin’.
And I’m ok with that.
Hang tough and good luck!
Thanks man. I’m really, really trying…
Life’s just a bitch sometimes, I guess.
But all I can do is try to focus forward, and cut out the bad stuff.
There’s a quote from Doctor Who (the Van Gogh episode), of all things, about life being a pile of good stuff and bad stuff. The good stuff doesn’t always outweigh the bad stuff, but the bad stuff doesn’t make the good any less worthwhile.
So… That’s kind of where I’m at. But I’ve been there for a long while.
Hopefully, if nothing else, I can make some “good” for myself, because that seems to be the only way that any comes into my life, really. It shouldn’t be quite this hard, but even to stop things tipping into “even worse” territory, I really have to fight hard all the time…
Eh, anyway, cheers again, and all the best to you! I genuinely appreciate it!