40-50 years? That's more optimistic than usual.

it's a hobby women can't take from me.

Why would they want to take away your hobby of funding feminism?

Well, I don't want to call for violence,

Indeed it is impractical. I've seen people here lament that they can't fed post, but it really doesn't do anything. No one is going to be allowed by the feds to organize 1776 part II on the public internet. There is no economic basis to sustain a revolutionary war against the government.

I just don't know where to go with my ideology.

That's part of the problem with your ideology. Challenging the system is a huge risk. It's more likely to make you poor, dead, or in prison than wealthy and successful. It's a serious personal sacrifice. It requires people in a movement to care about one another and their goal, to put it above their own well-being, but your whole world view is built upon rejection of any sort of higher calling. It's why I call you a female exclusionary liberal. You are fueled entirely by selfishness and bitterness. There's no love in you so whatever MGTOW-ish thing you are trying will always fail to launch.