I'd say even in the most moderate cases, being a lifelong outcast prone to spazfits is pretty bad considering that most of life is decided by socialization and the consensus of how you look to other people.
Unwittingly starting off on the wrong foot with everyone you meet is basically a sentence to a very poor quality of life, not to mention how hierarchal, socially elaborate, and fictitiously cordial the normative world is. People will always have this mysterious "it", an aspect of their humanity that they themselves can't even define - and they just click and are very permissive and understanding towards eachother, even if they are adversarial towards one another they can say "oh maybe so and so had a bad day" and that'll make sense to them - doesn't matter how different they are, that "it" always exists. You don't have this "it", and basically no matter how much you try to immitate normalcy you will always be seen as lesser by its metric and the moment you fuck up the world is against you.
If there is a "them vs us", you are basically "them" by default - an outsider, and while you can learn to frame their minds, they cannot frame or theorize yours at all regardless of how blunt you are. This is not as much of an advantage as you would think it is, since there are so many social organs attached to this understanding of one another that people will often misconceive of you within even very normal interactions. Consensus distorts this further until "weird" is a permanent fixture of how people see you, which has a lot of baggage to different people - who will judge you long before they ever know you and hold an invisible monopoly over your reputation, which means more than you'd think in this socially nepotistic world.
The only hope is that you are functional enough to get by or acquire the drive and not-giving-a-fuckedness to become realer than the real thing, polarizing, and larger than life, nothing less than absolute chutzpah will do.
You really have to believe that you are one of God's very own prototypes, too weird to live, too unique to truly die - or you will be left to rot in these iniquities.
Autism is one of the worst things you can have, but with a bit of wiggleroom it is very powerful.
I'd say even in the most moderate cases, being a lifelong outcast prone to spazfits is pretty bad considering that most of life is decided by socialization and the consensus of how you look to other people.
Unwittingly starting off on the wrong foot with everyone you meet is basically a sentence to a very poor quality of life, not to mention how hierarchal, socially elaborate, and fictitiously cordial the normative world is. People will always have this mysterious "it", an aspect of their humanity that they themselves can't even define - and they just click and are very permissive and understanding towards eachother, even if they are adversarial towards one another they can say "oh maybe so and so had a bad day" and that'll make sense to them - doesn't matter how different they are, that "it" always exists. You don't have this "it", and basically no matter how much you try to immitate normalcy you will always be seen as lesser by its metric and the moment you fuck up the world is against you.
If there is a "them vs us", you are basically "them" by default - an outsider, and while you can learn to frame their minds, they cannot frame or theorize yours at all regardless of how blunt you are. This is not as much of an advantage as you would think it is, since there are so many social organs attached to this understanding of one another that people will often misconceive of you within even very normal interactions. Consensus distorts this further until "weird" is a permanent fixture of how people see you, which has a lot of baggage to different people - who will judge you long before they ever know you and hold an invisible monopoly over your reputation, which means more than you'd think in this socially nepotistic world.
The only hope is that you are functional enough to get by or acquire the drive and not-giving-a-fuckedness to become realer than the real thing, polarizing, and larger than life, nothing less than absolute chutzpah will do.
You really have to believe that you are one of God's very own prototypes, too weird to live, too unique to truly die - or you will be left to rot in these iniquities.
Autism is one of the worst things you can have, but with a bit of wiggleroom it is very powerful.