Also, recognize how the modern "church" ritual functions.

Find a church that feels right. No female pastors, no fags. Ideally, the pastor should have a large family and the church should be involved in the community. The music service should be enjoyable and not forced, akward, or prerecorded. The awkwardness of going to a new church doesn't count as "feeling off."

The church service is for music and receiving a surface-level message. Sunday school (or whatever your church calls it) is for learning. It's unfortunately up to you to find out what your church offers that could help you grow. It probably won't be 'in church.' Which is fine, church is your time to praise God. But odds are you won't be taking notes. Realize that going in.