Just say you're a full-time carer for a family member. That makes all travel trips essential, no matter how trivial (although I've seen what Australia and its pigs are like these days, good luck).
A sense of purpose is a gift and its own reward. Once you realise, as you seem to have, that this is an existential struggle upon which your own actual destruction might hinge, it makes life very simple in some ways. You've got the purest purpose a person can have, regardless of how empty this crumbling society feels. Lots are fighting the same battle, although the issue of how we stop being so invisible to eachother is one of the big challenges.
Just say you're a full-time carer for a family member. That makes all travel trips essential, no matter how trivial (although I've seen what Australia and its pigs are like these days, good luck).
A sense of purpose is a gift and its own reward. Once you realise, as you seem to have, that this is an existential struggle upon which your own actual destruction might hinge, it makes life very simple in some ways. You've got the purest purpose a person can have, regardless of how empty this crumbling society feels. Lots are fighting the same battle, although the issue of how we stop being so invisible to eachother is one of the big challenges.