Mine… Is really not good. Like, even by my standards (which some of you have seen, lol), this is really, really bad.
I think there’s a few things at play, there: realizing I’m even worse “off”, in terms of “life progress”, than I thought. Realizing my financial and social situation is worse than I perhaps realized. Spending even more time around family that I obviously do not get along with (I’ve dreaded Christmas Day for the entire year, let’s be clear about that), or just… The supreme feelings of crushing loneliness and… “Emptiness” that this time of year tends to stir.
I’m sure I’m not alone in some of that. I think it’s a well-observed “phenom” that this time of year is awful, for mental health, for many people. So I hope you’re all doing ok in that regard.
On a more “political” note, seeing as we tend to prefer that here, lol, I’ve realized this week, perhaps, just how powerless we all are, to fight back against the worst of this dystopian corporate bullshit we all find ourselves amongst.
Like, I was even talking to, in essence, “leftists”, online, earlier this week, and even they think what is happening, with our corporate-tech-overlord-virtue-signalling dystopia is getting out of hand… And that’s in places with “left wing” governments, too. Even then, the problems have become so apparent, that leftists will begrudgingly acknowledge that something is wrong, even if they won’t admit the source…
No one will do anything. It really feels like we can’t do anything. Even working for, or being a client/member of, one of these corporations/banks/entities, you realize that you basically cannot do anything at all…
Maybe that contributed to the “badness” I have been feeling this week. Maybe not. But yeah, just thought I’d share, in case anyone else is “going through it”, this week.
You’re not alone, if so.
Keep it real.
Bad case of the Decembers, but honest to God I've been coming out of it more and more. The demoralization subsides when I put on my schizo-goggles and recognize these things for what they are - the situation is helpless because we are atomized, and the evil of this world keeps dissoluting the child of our collective germination like Saturn eating his own children.
Like many strange poetic parallels do, the motions will play out and Saturn will be castrated by his children of circumstance. We need only facilitate and maintain the context for good, even if it is to a limited degree and at haphazard of ourselves. The threat of the castrating child will always exist so long as we do; this is why the irrational fear of a white collectivization exists in the first place. This is why they fear their slaves escaping the plantation. This is why they feminize, commodify, castrate, isolate, disrupt and confuse. It's why venom seeps out of their fangs at the mere mention Jesus, who brought a sword to "children".
Aye, we should be as children said Paul, the budding cognition of collective awareness unto the sublime. Those who play the accuser and seducer angel ought to know that Samael is castrated by God.