I'm feeling pretty... Blackpilled, at the moment. Maybe even worse than that. Things are bad. Things keep getting worse. Not just politically, but... As a human being. All the failed relationships, all the lost friendships, all the... Shit, that has happened in my life, is sort of getting to me pretty bad.
But more than that, it feels like we're losing. Like things... Are spiralling out of control (in Aus, but also outside it). I literally can't look at ANY popular media, or any sort of news, without being utterly bombarded by it.
So... If you've got a good "whitepill", or just... Something that counteracts all this... Existential angst, and feelings of sheer... Doom, I would appreciate hearing it, I guess. Thanks. While it lasts, and while I last.
Yeah, go find something heavy, pick it up, and then put it back down. Repeat until you're so sore you can't do it anymore, and then keep going.
Alternatively, go to the nearest sporting goods store, buy a cheap bow, some arrows, and a target, and shoot the shit out of it. Seriously, I started doing archery a couple months back, and it's so incredibly fucking satisfying when you finally get it right and start hitting the center reliably. Just make sure to find a place where you won't hit anyone else.
Yeah, archery is pretty good, hey? I did it a few months back, as part of a festival...
Also darts. I rather enjoy darts, and I'm better at it (less so archery) than I thought I would be!
So I'll probably buy a proper darts board/set first, lol... Cheaper, slightly less dangerous, and more transportable (ish). But yeah. I get the appeal, trust me.
As for something heavy, I guess... My body, lol? Nah, I'm not that overweight, but I have started doing regular... Push up, sit up, etc, sessions...
Honestly, though? Doesn't really help my mind, even if it exhausts my body... Thought it would, but so far..? Not much luck. Same with jogging.
I think my mind is just so... Pained, that exercise, dopamine, exhaustion, etc, so far at least... Doesn't make that much difference to it. Unfortunately...
Ha, yeah, I haven't played darts in like 5 years! They closed my favorite pub that had darts, I used to go there with my buddies. I used to be a spectacle because I throw darts like they're javelins, starting the movement from behind my shoulder. That's not the funny part, the real fun thing is that I actually tend to hit where I'm aiming at, while throwing like a retard.
But anyway, yeah, I think I know how it feels, I can't completely forget either. I'm one of those people who can't stop thinking, maybe you're the same. This kinda resonates with me, except for the misanthropy bit; I had a stage where I was misanthropic, but then I realized there's incredible strength and potential in humanity, and now I believe we're all being tested, and it's my - and your - duty as a human being to persevere and be better; better in the traditional sense, not the "do better" horseshit SJWs like to throw around. I don't know exactly how I got to this state of mind, but it's where I am, and it seems like a good thing to believe in.
Still, doing exhausting things seems to help, at least temporarily. So does reading a good book. TBH, going to the gym never did it for me either, it's a good and useful thing to do, but there are no immediate goals to meet (okay, sure, personal records, but somehow that's different to me), it's a long-term endeavor. With stuff like archery, or darts, or air rifle shooting (I'm getting one next spring, a Weihrauch HW 97 K) you have an immediate goal: hit exactly where you're aiming at. And when you do, you feel satisfied for a bit.