I thought I knew, but broadly speaking being raised a neo-conservative there are enough holes in that philosophy that it led me to question it. And then of course much later the holes in neo-liberalism revealed themselves and left me unsatisfied with that philosophy.

Once I discovered right-wing nationalism/populism was a thing, that was the end of my search for a home. In that regard perhaps OP is ahead of the curve, but then again perhaps his true home is elsewhere.