At this point I'll just happily run towards the military/army to shoot me. I give up, I'm mentally too tired and sick of all this bullshit. I'm not fighting anymore. The only wish I want is whenever i go sleep, to not wake up anymore.
Gotta focus on small wins. I don't know if you are in a free state or a tyranny state but I would move to the free and bask in the glory of whatever time we have left. Or better yet, move out into a small town in a remote area of a red state. No one will ever bother you. Pick up gardening, homesteading, candlemaking, I don't know but something that will give you purpose!
Luckily I'm not in USA, I'm from one of the smallest countries in the World (EU). I'd wanted to learn all those things, but first I need a job to make some income to get me a small area. Luckily I got the job where the absurd mandates aren't required because they do not support those as well. I've constantly had to battle different shit from people, fake friends, strangers, family members, so my mental game is probably the strongest part of me. But the fact that I can't even enjoy 3x per year travelling and lose myself for a bit, just got me. Really just broke me down in the last 20 months.
I hear you fren. For the most part I have remained strong and have been focusing on getting in better shape, making more money, being more efficient. But there are times when it does start to wear you down. This is exactly what their goal is. I am lucky that I am in a free red state, so it is easier. But hang in there, pray!
At this point I'll just happily run towards the military/army to shoot me. I give up, I'm mentally too tired and sick of all this bullshit. I'm not fighting anymore. The only wish I want is whenever i go sleep, to not wake up anymore.
Gotta focus on small wins. I don't know if you are in a free state or a tyranny state but I would move to the free and bask in the glory of whatever time we have left. Or better yet, move out into a small town in a remote area of a red state. No one will ever bother you. Pick up gardening, homesteading, candlemaking, I don't know but something that will give you purpose!
Luckily I'm not in USA, I'm from one of the smallest countries in the World (EU). I'd wanted to learn all those things, but first I need a job to make some income to get me a small area. Luckily I got the job where the absurd mandates aren't required because they do not support those as well. I've constantly had to battle different shit from people, fake friends, strangers, family members, so my mental game is probably the strongest part of me. But the fact that I can't even enjoy 3x per year travelling and lose myself for a bit, just got me. Really just broke me down in the last 20 months.
I hear you fren. For the most part I have remained strong and have been focusing on getting in better shape, making more money, being more efficient. But there are times when it does start to wear you down. This is exactly what their goal is. I am lucky that I am in a free red state, so it is easier. But hang in there, pray!