I'm glad you were able to get clean. Not sure what the story is behind taking it nonconsensualy, but good to hear you were able to kick it. What really sucks about addiction is that you never truly can go back to how you were before ever starting. There will forever be a lingering desire for what ever your poison was buried in the recesses of your you mind. I hope you can stay clear. Never give into the "just once more couldn't hurt" nagging thought. ESPECIALLY if someone goads you into it. Sometimes turning down someone is even harder than turning yourself down.