I'm in a very liberal northern state. So that doesn't help. And the fact that you're basically Hitler if you have anything close to an opposing opinion also isn't nice. And I'm a minor and I can not move out of this hellhole of a state anytime soon. (Massachusetts to be exact. I think that's self explanatory.)
Jokes aside though. How were people so okay with the "peaceful protests" during the Black Lives Matter thing, but completely different during the Capitol "Riot" ? Like are people that contradictory?
i am one such example. it's tough living, i'll tell you. many times a day i fear the stress will overtake me and reduce me into somebody who just can't handle the passing of time anymore, and at that point all my dreams about the future go down the shitter.
I hope you at least have a close friend to talk to; being able to simply vent your concerns and frustrations without fear can be a huge buffer to stability. You found this place, so you're clearly resisting subversion.
Dreams is a big topic, and I don't feel like I'm qualified to address it, with the state my own life is in.