I'm in a very liberal northern state. So that doesn't help. And the fact that you're basically Hitler if you have anything close to an opposing opinion also isn't nice. And I'm a minor and I can not move out of this hellhole of a state anytime soon. (Massachusetts to be exact. I think that's self explanatory.)
Jokes aside though. How were people so okay with the "peaceful protests" during the Black Lives Matter thing, but completely different during the Capitol "Riot" ? Like are people that contradictory?
I hope you at least have a close friend to talk to; being able to simply vent your concerns and frustrations without fear can be a huge buffer to stability. You found this place, so you're clearly resisting subversion.
Dreams is a big topic, and I don't feel like I'm qualified to address it, with the state my own life is in.