I can’t imagine what that is like. You really have no friends? As for jobs, I used to work in the call center world and I know they are almost always hiring or contact some local temp agencies. I made quite a few friends through my nerd hobbies. Start there.

I know you don’t want to hear it, but reconsider at least a little your views on. God. Jesus indeed loves you. I was once a very hateful man despite being raised in the church. Thankfully it didn’t last because a good friend helped me back on the right path.