I got into death metal around ~2000. At that point I reached the incredibly named anus.com.* Y'all might laugh, but this was a super reactionary place at that point. I'll always remember the triggering moment for me: a simple question of whether culture determined race (social constructionism), or whether race determined culture. Just that possibility led me down a rabbit hole that never ceased. My nasty right-wing thoughts ever permeated, and after a touch of Sowell, I was done for.
*These days, some of the reviews on the old website are available at deathmetal.org.
--- a little drunk, so including some links:
**Never stopped creating and being into metal. Recent album from me: https://youtu.be/s3t07Bm_xYc
***and some beautiful metal from one of my favorite metal bands - no worries about wokeness here - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hX08XkWW7HU&t=1759s
**** and some more nice black metal https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QIkL52qlcHA
I don't think I'm a radical anything. If anything, I'm an extremely low key person. If anything, I hate the fact that I have to talk about politics and know about this shit and all. I'm not above average intelligence, I just want to stay home, bake cookies, read my books and pet my dog.
The thing that made me realise that the left is absolutely fucked was living in Sweden for some time.
You know how they say you are a small town bigot who never saw the world? I did live abroad, I speak multiple languages and learning another right now, I read a fuckton, I dated foreigners, I did all the things they like to say would "cure" me.
And Sweden still made me realise that libtard shit makes people aimless, unsatisfied, scared, unsure, unhealthy and just generally failed human beings.
And that's ignoring the third world menace.
Now if we were on Reddit, some liberal or even a Swede on copium would show up and tell me about those bullcrap "studies" about life quality. What they ignore is that a Swede would NEVER tell some random researcher that they are deeply unhappy. Sure, maybe they would say they think homos don't get enough free things and "racism is still an issue" or whatever is trendy, but you don't see all the unhappy yung people hopped on antidepressants (If anything, that would be a positive in the study, because HURRR, healthcare), drinking themselves into an early grave, feeling lonely, isolated, without an actual identity that's not about fitting into some socjuc cult, etc.
I'm a Swede. This is certainly true for the majority of Swedes. Sadly.
I used to be super jealous of you guys before I moved there.
The Swedish friend I lived with used to be in a friend group with a bunch of artsy people. I've always been interested in arts, like painting and such, but my working class, Eastern European family couldn't just let me become a starving illustrator or something.
In contrast to that, a bunch of the Swedish people from that group went to art school, had gallery shows, did those art zines together, etc.
But then I realised, they just farted away those opportunities. They spent their expensive college years doing weed and joining feminist clubs when they had animation studios at their disposal.
They refused to develop skill sets that can be useful and earn you money because they had the luxury of not having to be marketable.