Not to exaggerate, and sure, some of this is probably depression-related, but I find everything that is happening, lately, to just be... Exhausting.
Particularly the "coof" shit. Australia, where I live, is ground zero for quite literally the most oppressive approach in any supposedly "democratic" country (yes, some parts of the US are more restrictive in some ways, and yes, Ardernistan exists, but, overall, I'm sorry, but I would have to say we are worse), and it is just... EVERYWHERE.
Like, I try to get offline, I really do, but I am not kidding when I say it is everywhere, here. The TV (idiot box), of course, is utterly saturated with it. The newspapers are, naturally, too. When I leave the house, pretty much to do anything, now, I have to "check in" on my fucking smart phone, even just to buy bread, or I am literally breaking the law. This is all anyone talks about now (well, this and Afghanistan). This DOMINATES our fucking lives.
And I can't travel anywhere. Hell, I can barely even go interstate. The prevailing attitude in this country has always been "love it or leave", but now we can't even fucking LEAVE...
So... I'm just so very tired. "Get off the internet" isn't working. "Talk to someone, then"...
Oh sure, let me go talk to my doomer parents, then, who are so brainwashed by the news and their own agendas that they literally regurgitate it all word for word, and then yell me down when I try to literally SHOW them it is wrong. Or how about my girlfriend, who is so depressed, and so anxious, now, that she barely goes out except to work and to walk her dog (much like me), let alone bearing in mind that we live hundreds of miles apart, anyway... Or maybe my grandfather. Oh wait, I can't, because I'm not even allowed to visit him in his nursing home, because, get this, I haven't had the fucking FLU vaccination yet. Not Covid. The flu. Because they fucking can...
So yeah, I'm sorry, I just... I hope y'all are doing better than me, in your "righteous anger", because personally, after having learned that my country is fucking shooting rescue dogs (see the post yesterday), and laughing that "Haha, this is because of Covid", I'm just... Beyond exhausted by it all. And I'm not sure how much longer I can keep living like that, let alone all the other clown world bullshit that is going on, around, and in some cases allegedly unrelated to, the sniffles... :-(
I'll see how long anger can keep someone alive, soon, I suppose. Because there's not much else that burns me enough to keep the overwhelming sadness and sheer frustration at bay...
I would sell everything, convert it to US dollars then go down to the nearest marina. Look for a robust looking yacht, load it up with food and hijack it. I bet I could sail into florida moor it a mile offshore and use a small boat to come ashore. If nothing else at least it would be exciting.
Ha, I wish I was as confident in my sailing abilities as you!!
But nah, honestly, we're an island in the middle of nowhere (in my case, an island off an island)... "We" have full control (in theory) of "our" territorial waters, and even if I got further than that, NZ would just pick me up, and send me back to face charges, lol...
However IF I had the financial resources to spare, I would probably buy a small yacht, and sail off into the sunset, because, I mean, if no one knows, at least initially, it's pretty unlikely that Border Force will bother tracking me down until I'm well gone, so that would... At least last a while. At least until I was caught and extradited for "leaving without permission", or whatever...
Anyway, it's a nice fantasy, I admit, but seriously, I live in a country that thinks it has the right to even police Antarctic waters... It's pretty hard to escape the grip of Australian and allied law enforcement. At least without dying in the process, anyway!!