Man, I've seen several of these kinds of posts over the years on the various KiAs, some quite different to yours in some respects.
But there's always a single common thread, someone somewhere was having a terrible time of it and at their very lowest you reach out to someone who seems almost excited to hear of your suffering and you're suddenly introduced to a new group of people by them.
Step 1 is to immediately validate all of your suffering and tell you it's because you're oppressed in some way by society. That's everything, including validating the self-indulgent angsty stuff seriously depressed teenagers usually end up picking up and a healthy nurturing group would try to steer you away from even though it's uncomfortable to let go of, rather than encourage it like your new 'friends' will.
Step 2 is teaching the lingo and repeating the various broken NPC-like arguments alongside all the affirmations until you find a way to rationalize away the irrational parts of what they're saying because your new 'friends' are trying to help you and (again, because they target people at their lowest and most confused) you figure you must be the one in the wrong if all these other people confidently agree it makes sense. There's a utopia free from the oppression that made you miserable waiting if everyone will just agree to the same ideas you've now convinced yourself aren't broken and flawed.
Step 3 is to constantly encourage you to cut out everyone who won't immediately validate everything about you, even the unhealthy stuff, or dares to question the flaws in the arguments you've been given. If they don't then they're standing in the way of your promised utopia and are complicit in your oppression, they're probably evil. Eventually you've burned your bridges with any alternative support you might have outside of the cult you've inadvertently joined and the only people you associate with are fellow cult members or other vulnerable, malleable people ripe for recruitment.
Step 4 is literally profit. If the cult you'd joined was Scientology this is where you'd be told to liquidate your assets to get closer to the thetans. But if the cult you'd joined was 'social justice' this is where you're told to join forces with other groups of differently oppressed people and attack the people and organizations you're told are preventing you all from reaching utopia, even if the reasons don't quite make sense to you.
It's shocking how close it is to other cult induction rituals but somehow goes without nearly as much scorn by society at large as other cults. And it's truly infuriating when you see how higher up the chain it's stable, affluent people puppeting and parasitizing vulnerable, miserable people for their own further profit. The professors and silver spoon activists who didn't just stumble on a cause in their darkest hour, but comfortably manipulated the causes to satisfy their own personal desire for power.
Man, that's a long, hard road to self-acceptance. Glad you found it.
From my perspective, it sounds like your retardation led to people gaslighting you into insanity.
Congratulations on the degree of recovery you've experienced.
Man, I've seen several of these kinds of posts over the years on the various KiAs, some quite different to yours in some respects.
But there's always a single common thread, someone somewhere was having a terrible time of it and at their very lowest you reach out to someone who seems almost excited to hear of your suffering and you're suddenly introduced to a new group of people by them.
Step 1 is to immediately validate all of your suffering and tell you it's because you're oppressed in some way by society. That's everything, including validating the self-indulgent angsty stuff seriously depressed teenagers usually end up picking up and a healthy nurturing group would try to steer you away from even though it's uncomfortable to let go of, rather than encourage it like your new 'friends' will.
Step 2 is teaching the lingo and repeating the various broken NPC-like arguments alongside all the affirmations until you find a way to rationalize away the irrational parts of what they're saying because your new 'friends' are trying to help you and (again, because they target people at their lowest and most confused) you figure you must be the one in the wrong if all these other people confidently agree it makes sense. There's a utopia free from the oppression that made you miserable waiting if everyone will just agree to the same ideas you've now convinced yourself aren't broken and flawed.
Step 3 is to constantly encourage you to cut out everyone who won't immediately validate everything about you, even the unhealthy stuff, or dares to question the flaws in the arguments you've been given. If they don't then they're standing in the way of your promised utopia and are complicit in your oppression, they're probably evil. Eventually you've burned your bridges with any alternative support you might have outside of the cult you've inadvertently joined and the only people you associate with are fellow cult members or other vulnerable, malleable people ripe for recruitment.
Step 4 is literally profit. If the cult you'd joined was Scientology this is where you'd be told to liquidate your assets to get closer to the thetans. But if the cult you'd joined was 'social justice' this is where you're told to join forces with other groups of differently oppressed people and attack the people and organizations you're told are preventing you all from reaching utopia, even if the reasons don't quite make sense to you.
It's shocking how close it is to other cult induction rituals but somehow goes without nearly as much scorn by society at large as other cults. And it's truly infuriating when you see how higher up the chain it's stable, affluent people puppeting and parasitizing vulnerable, miserable people for their own further profit. The professors and silver spoon activists who didn't just stumble on a cause in their darkest hour, but comfortably manipulated the causes to satisfy their own personal desire for power.
Thanks for this, I bet you've helped a few people today, which is worth it.
Of course.