You're tight lipped because you're afraid of being called a Nazi, a white supremacist. You're too cowardly to act because "mug optics". Now even your neighbors or your immediate family members would rat you out if you said something that doesn't align the party's ideology. You're going to be banned using major services for supporting the "wrong" candidate.
Do you want to know where I've heard that before? Right. North Korea, China's Cultural Revolution, Pol Pot's regime in Cambodia, Fidel Castro's regime in Cuba.
How do I feel? Actually better than about six months ago. Does that mean I like it, of course not. But letting the enemy play with my emotions and alter my mental state is a win for them and a loss for me.
I think of it like tournament poker. Play the cards I'm dealt. I don't control the cards but I do control my strategy. I've never won a poker game letting someone else at the table rile me up and get me away from playing with my brain. Patience and timing are important. Do my best to pick the right time to make a move. Sometimes it works, others it doesn't. Many often play stupid, over-aggressive, gamble-y. More often than not they are out of the game early. If I'm still playing I can still win, even if it doesn't look good. If I play dumb and am out of chips, I already lost.
It's not a ton different than I try to go about life. Try to level out the emotional ups and downs and play a quiet, even-keeled, cerebral game. I don't really intend to change. If we need an aggressive play, show me an aggressive play with some chance of success and I'm in. Otherwise, I'll keep being patient.