I'm in a very liberal northern state. So that doesn't help. And the fact that you're basically Hitler if you have anything close to an opposing opinion also isn't nice. And I'm a minor and I can not move out of this hellhole of a state anytime soon. (Massachusetts to be exact. I think that's self explanatory.)
Jokes aside though. How were people so okay with the "peaceful protests" during the Black Lives Matter thing, but completely different during the Capitol "Riot" ? Like are people that contradictory?
I'd recommend Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, one of my personal favorites. Consider Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules for Life as well if you're in need of some direction. It's nothing ground breaking, but he's very tuned in to the kinds of struggles modern society has wrought.
Any soldier will tell you to learn your enemies tactics, so read and watch Yuri Bezmenov, The Antifa Handbook and Rules for Radicals.