Mine… Is really not good. Like, even by my standards (which some of you have seen, lol), this is really, really bad.
I think there’s a few things at play, there: realizing I’m even worse “off”, in terms of “life progress”, than I thought. Realizing my financial and social situation is worse than I perhaps realized. Spending even more time around family that I obviously do not get along with (I’ve dreaded Christmas Day for the entire year, let’s be clear about that), or just… The supreme feelings of crushing loneliness and… “Emptiness” that this time of year tends to stir.
I’m sure I’m not alone in some of that. I think it’s a well-observed “phenom” that this time of year is awful, for mental health, for many people. So I hope you’re all doing ok in that regard.
On a more “political” note, seeing as we tend to prefer that here, lol, I’ve realized this week, perhaps, just how powerless we all are, to fight back against the worst of this dystopian corporate bullshit we all find ourselves amongst.
Like, I was even talking to, in essence, “leftists”, online, earlier this week, and even they think what is happening, with our corporate-tech-overlord-virtue-signalling dystopia is getting out of hand… And that’s in places with “left wing” governments, too. Even then, the problems have become so apparent, that leftists will begrudgingly acknowledge that something is wrong, even if they won’t admit the source…
No one will do anything. It really feels like we can’t do anything. Even working for, or being a client/member of, one of these corporations/banks/entities, you realize that you basically cannot do anything at all…
Maybe that contributed to the “badness” I have been feeling this week. Maybe not. But yeah, just thought I’d share, in case anyone else is “going through it”, this week.
You’re not alone, if so.
Keep it real.
You obviously got some shit going on but at any point you’re 6-12 months from turning it all around. Learn to code, dude, and find an entry level or part time job that will pay you to do it. You won’t get one of those 200K computer science jobs but the business world is full of dudes bullshitting about their technical prowess and they’re desperate for direct reports that can help them validate that. Every workplace will be against your politics, but the reality is you’ll have a chance to hit an income level where you might be able to afford not to feed your family bugs.
Yeah, I got lucky though and didn’t need experience.
It’s hard up front but once you get some fundamentals down things make more sense.